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Ok, I have taken some time out and decided that after writing about my marriage and the love of my life I have to face it and walk that fourth step through it to get to the other side and into the light of holistic healing.
It is really scary to face your worst nightmare, walk with it for twenty so years and then decide to face up to it and finally leave it behind.
There is a season for all things, so we are told and I feel that it is the season to walk through this right now. I know I will have to be utterly honest, face my mistakes too, and draw on the strength of my God [my HP as I understand Him] in order to morally stand up and be counted.
Feel a great deal of insecurity as I open up this pandora's box that I have had firmly locked for so long...however, the miracle within this situation is that through this family and this programme I have the courage to even contemplate doing this let alone go ahead and do this.
I know, in my heart, that the pain will be worth it as the wounds will be, once and for all properly cleansed, stitched up and with the attendant care healed, so I am thinking that the pros really do outweigh the cons.
I would appreciate your prayers as I step out; I may have a certain amount of trepidation, however I know I have a greater amount of strength when I attach myself to the highest power in the whole world, and walk in the light of that power.
What is that saying; "If He brought you to it, He will bring you through it"?
Yes please. Suzannah
-- Edited by Suzannah at 08:11, 2008-07-05
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
As I was reading your post, I was truly blessed. You have been through so much and have accomplished so much in this program.
As always you will be in my daily prayers. I have confidence that HP see you through this. Though the path may seem scary you have the tools you will need to see you through this.
With Love,
Claudia
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A person's a person no matter how small --Dr Suess
I doubt you realize how beautifully you get a point across.
That was such a refreshing post. You are ready for something pretty scarey for you, and you push on.
I am scared to death of heights. In my dreams though I feel that icky feeling, get tired of it and jump off.strange.
I would love to do what you are but don't know what it is I could do. I love challenge. Has made me say about anything,well if someone else can do it I can! Remember others have done what you are ready for and made it.If anyone can follow their windy path it is you.You have lots of people here supporting you, as you support us.
Ok get a stick fill a red kerchief with some sprouted bread,sweet grapes, good water.Tie it onto your stick.Put on your walking shoes,wear a hat,put on a smile, head up now!! Don't forget your binoculars to look a bit a way in each direction.
