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I think I have figured out something really cool- my life is going along well! I have for the most part eliminated all drama and trauma from my life. I am content and peaceful. I no longer need to beg God for mercy; I now know that he is merciful, I know God is with me and working with me in my life, guiding me and presenting me with a variety of situations that he knows I can manage ONE DAY AT A TIME. I know I can manage them, too because God is there working alongside me. He is not off somewhere, he is next to me in every moment in every day.
I am so grateful for this program and this message board! Hugs, J.
I wish I could feel that way right now. At this point, I beg God everyday for something to give, nothing does, just gets worse and worse. I can't handle it one day at a time much longer. Also, how can you remove the drama from your life, especially if removing the drama is going to cause another set of circumstances to crop up that will never give you peace and serenity? I am truly happy for you, and I so wish I had your ESH.
YEA JEAN!!!!!!! This is the miracle they speak of isn't it? I can't say I am where you are but I have had much faith restored and I am grateful. Lately it occurs to me that I am being carried. When I have felt so far from HP, when I have felt lost and all alone, I do believe that these must be the times I am being carried by Him. I have faith that no matter what else comes up, I will be able to handle it because I have HP and this program where the wise-set, kindest people gather. Congradulations girl!!!!!!!!!
I'm glad you are in that more stable place. I have my ups and downs. I can't say my life is wonderful but it is not fraught with surviving as much. I also can't really say it is focused yet.
Queenie, my life was that way before I really got into this program and attended meetings like clockwork at least 2-3 times per week for two years straight. Now I attend once a week, sometimes twice. This program and this message board turned my life totally around.
I was in a horrible marriage to an alcoholic who was also bipolar and verbally, emotionally and physically abusive. I chose to leave when the physical abuse began (before the physical abuse were years of mental, emotional and really bad verbal abuse that completely wore me down).
When I left him, I could not raise my head or look a single person in the eye directly. I worked so hard to be as invisible as possible.
NOW, I just finished grad school with two masters degrees, I just got a offered a great new job (which I think I am going to take but need to sleep on it a little more) and have a really sweet and kind hearted new lover who is completely cool about me, where I was and where I am going (i.e NOT wanting to get married or live together, just visit each other a half dozen times per year- we live in different parts of the world).
You do have options, we all do. Attend meetings. I honestly am not quite sure how they work but all that matters to me that YES, they DO WORK. please invest yourself whole heartedly into this program and watch your life change slowly, one day at a time. It honestly works if you work it. Read as much of literature as you possibly can. Get a good home group and call the members in between meetings. Reach out to al-anon, your life totally depends upon it.
God is right here, right now. Accept your life as it is. Look at it very carefully and then decide what you want to do and how you want to change. Only we can change ourselves! Hugs, J.
You got your vision back!!! Awesome!! I call it heart sight where the eyes of the heart begin to see and understand more than the eyes of the head.
I never had to beg God or scream or yell or swear at God. I needed to stop trying to perceive what was real by searching the material world with my eyes. You have entered the realm of the spirit and this is a spiritual program...only.
Keep practicing what you did to get where you are at and keep giving it away because that is how we keep it.
