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Was thinking about you all and i decided to drop by and say hi
Hoping this finds everyone having the courage to change their lives into what they want it to be...
Well the last three months i have had no Al-anon, i felt i needed some time to truely get to know myself. Learn my "strengths and my Weaknesses". When i was in Al-anon i always had someone to place a thought in my head, and i sometimes rested on that. The outcome being i was still allowing other people to do my thinking for me. Not intentionally as i should have taken what i liked, but sometimes it's easier if something is suggested to you to go with it.
In my time away i have realised that i was still doing for everyone else (People - pleasing). I am now aware of certain things in my life that "NEED" to be changed. My job for one, i need to do something that i enjoy doing and makes me happy. My job for the last few years has become a habit, and i have lost the edge on it. Politics come into everything and you no longer work on the persons behalf, but on the laurels of the company..."People are becoming statistics today, the "human touch" is disappearing, and that's time for me to move on...
Another thing in my life i was looking for was my "mr Wonderful" lol Well i've given up on that also. I have plenty of offers today and i am realising who are true and who are looking to use me for their own convenience. My last relationship lasted for four months, and i learned a lot about myself from that. But it wasn't meant to be, and i ended it, because he couldn't give me what i needed. Today i am in no hurry to find that "mr Wonderful" because i know i won't ever find him.lol
I have also been writing and am now taking a keen interest in photography, writing has always been a passion of mine, and i done nothing about it, i am now... And photography i started learning from my last relationship, so something positive has come from that..
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE:::
I am finding the courage within me to just be myself. I am organising a charity event, that is for the "Childrens Hospice Assciation Scotland" (Terminally Ill Children)
I am going to jump 10,000Ft from a plane. This is the girl who is scared from flying, heights, you name it..LOL I figure that children go through years of suffering with cancer and some don't survive the journey, so, what's ten mins out of my life to jump and hopefully raise a whole lot of funds for the cause.
I am going round companies and requesting sponsorship, so i'm feeling very positive, and hopeful i will make good target. The jump in itself i have been watching videos, and it looks fab, exciting, horrendous, terrifying...lol
Most of the people who know of me will know i'm slightly "Crazy" anyway (in a good way) and i have a fantastic personality, and i'm counting on that to get me through this....This is a once in a lifetime oppertunity for me. Something i would NOT have considered two years ago...
All in All Al-anon was there for me when i needed it, i still live by it day to day, and in time who knows i may return again... I have a myspace and a few Alanuts on that, so i am still in contact with some of the family....
"We all have the "Courage" inside us, it just takes hard work and determination to release it, and allow us to start living our lives for "us".....
What a nice surprise to see you here. I'm glad to see that you are doing so well. I think when we stop looking for that "perfect person" someone special comes into our lives. I too, am going through the motions at work. It's hard when we don't love our jobs any more. I actually love working with the public, but this store and company are going in a direction that I find unhealthy. It's no longer fun. I realized the other day that we don't laugh at work anymore. What a sad way to be. But companies change and I can either be miserable or find a way to change me! COURAGE TO CHANGE!
I can't believe you are skydiving! HOLY ! Make sure you send us pictures. If there was a way for me here in the states to make a contribution to the hospice fund I would. (Let me know if there is a way.) It's a wonderful thing hospice. If there isn't a way I can contribute I'll make a donation in their name to another cancer site. I did lots of fundraising for nonprofit groups and it's not easy. I'm sure you'll find a way to charm the socks off the corporate world. Watch out corporate world - ALLY'S COMING!
You sound wonderful, strong and happy. I think that's the benefit of a program. You take what you like and leave the rest. Sometimes time away from it can be beneficial. I hope you will continue to keep in touch with us and give us the benefit and gifts of your wisdom. We are blessed by your posts. Much love and blessings to you.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
It's so nice to hear from you, Ally. I really miss your sharing, but I understand we all have to fnd our own way. I'm glad to hear you are doing so well and are hapy.
Lov in recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
! Make sure you send us pictures. If there was a way for me here in the states to make a contribution to the hospice fund I would. (Let me know if there is a way.) It's a wonderful thing hospice. If there isn't a way I can contribute I'll make a donation in their name to another cancer site. I did lots of fundraising for nonprofit groups and it's not easy. I'm sure you'll find a way to charm the socks off the corporate world. Watch out corporate world - ALLY'S COMING! 
