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Hi, thank you for all your support and words.I read them all over and over.The thoughts also come up in my head.
Son called me, we had a nice normal conversation. I told him thank you for callind. He said if this is what it takes I will keep checking in. Was soooooo nice.
Daughter apologised then went on to say more hurtful things in an email.I had asked her to forgive me for whatever she believed I had done.She has not responded.
She said how she puts up this wall to everyone. Yet slammed and slammed me about neglecting her,and not being there.duh.I felt that wall and made sure I gave her her space.
She did not even tell me when she went into labor, yet yelled at me for not being there.She included me in zero. yet I got horribly tore apart for not doing much for my grandson.
She has a friend she wants to raise him in case something happens. That hurt a lot.She then says she has been there more than anyone. yet I was not allowed to and got heck for it.
Totally irrational thinking.
I have nothing to do but give it to hp.
She is doing what she always does when I hit a nerve.
Don't know what is going on. Cannot stay awake.Slept all day yesterday,and all night and now want to sleep.Will go in and see doc.Got a very weird pain in my abdomen. dull pain.
Not really unhappy. Just not right. dizzyish,no energy.ug.
anyway thank you. this will all be ok.love,debilyn
Still routing for you Debilyn...hang in there...take all the positives and reject the negatives...your HP is holding His hand out for those and He will deal with them.
Meanwhile, look after you and rest when you can, eat gently and drink plenty of water...I know that is something I got to do more of.
Sending you and and something to cuddle
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Well, progress not perfection. The disease manifests itself in our children in strange inspite of efforts. Maybe you are just emotional exhauted. Anyhoo you sound better.
our beloved children sure can hurt us to the very core of our being. I know mine have - I try to keep reminding myself that most of the time it's really not about me - it is about their perception of their lives, their word and their reactions to feelings not facts.
For my girls, some of these traits they learned from me, some they have acquired on their own. But the HEALTHY unconditional love & HEATHLY compassion that I show them is different that what we grew up with and maybe one day it will help us all to a better relationship.
Praying that is what will happen between you and your children too.
Wishing you Serenity & Joy, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
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and something to cuddle 
