The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I don't know whether this is something that comes of age, however I feel that I have experienced a wonderfully satisfying and completeness of being this very moment.
Just looking around me, I have come to realise that I have everything I need, and there is nothing that I want other than to continue in this state of mind and being.
I have no need of any further possessions for the serenity that I have as a result of working this programme has given me complete satisfaction. I have never been one for shopping, retail therapy has never been an issue, or a delight to me. As long as I can pay my way in life, be a peace with society and enjoy the love of my family, there is nothing more that I need or want.
Coming to this place has given me the ability to take each moment as it comes, look for the miracle in it and savour that experience. Being at one with my children, as and when they choose to be in contact is no more and no less than I am content with. Watching and being a part of their lives and their children's lives is the most beautiful and precious gift that I could be given.
I feel that, at long last, I have arrived home, comfortable in my own company and ready to share with others at their pace. No more laying of plans seem to matter, one moment at a time shows me the preciousness of letting go and letting God.
All the things I used to worry about, others opinions, what I would wear, what I might do or where I would go, how I would live and with whom I would share my life no longer seem to be the issues of fear and concern. I feel complete and ready to take on the world as it is revealed to me.
What a JOY.
Suzannah
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Wow! Thank you for sharing that. It is a message of hope for me.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Sue you have a genuine softness about you. Your posts always reflect a lady who is real.
I am glad from all your struggles, you have gleaned the lesson and miracle.We learn when things are tough.
Life is up and down,just is. Things change, challenges bring out our strengths and things we need to work on.
Here I am here and have had no relationship with A for two years.But alanon and all of our sis and bros here,cont. to teach me so much.
My relationships are way better,though I cannot see them much. I am not as shy,never knew about boundaries, sure do now. Hey we old flower children shared everything and everything was alright.oh brother.
You have been willing to do the footwork, you kept coming, you are working your program and the rewards are paying off. So happy to see your progress and be a part.
love in recovery, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
