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A year ago I was devasted that the A could respond to me with contempt on my birthday. I had no idea that one year later I could detach from that kind of venom or that I could consider living without him or obsessing about him 24/7. I am trying to look on that as a "present". Indeed I am trying to look at a brief respite from feeling overwhelmed by fits of asthma and hayfever as a present too. This last illness has soaked up all my resources so there is no special "treat" for me beyond being able to breathe without discomfort.
I am going to go and get my hair cut on Saturday at something beyond the bargain basement shop I've been going to for months. That is a present of sorts too. I am trying to look for the silver lining rather than despair and that's new for me as well. One day at a time, one second at a time, one moment at a time some days but it is moving forward rather than staying the same or getting much much worse.
I'm one year older and one year more in al anon which is a gift for me every day. Who needs a birthday party after that?
I will cuddle with my dogs and my demanding little cat, Ruby, and be grateful I have recovery and be happy with that for now. In time, I'll get to reep the rewards of more recovery.
Good to read you today, Maresie, and sending birthday wishes your way! Funny you mentioned a haircut as I am thinking the same thing for my birthday next week! ((((hugs))))
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"If a dog will not come to you after having looked you in the face, you should go home and examine your conscience." - Woodrow Wilson
Good for you! I hope you have a really nice birthday. A good haircut always makes me feel better, too.
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
