The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had all three on Fri, but I have to admit that the good outweighed them all.
My workload ended up pretty light and I knew there was a meeting at noon. It was in another town and one I've never been too, and I just had this burning desire to go. I walked in and immediately felt uncomfortable. All strangers, everyone looking a bit cold to me. So judgemental of me I know, for I walked in with arms crossed and reserved, and they looked just like me!
As the meeting progressed and the shares began, the ice melted. I discovered 4 of the 7 of us were new to the meeting. Why am I also so surprised to always discover that many are often as distraught as me? One woman came in late and sat pulled up a chair to the outskirts of the group. I assumed she must have been new. She finally shared. She was a friend of one of the other new members and had been in the program for over 20 yrs. She only spoke of her love of the program. She appeared very kind, and represented peace to me.
After the meeting when I was leaving, she came after me and made a hopeful comment on something I said. Then, she asked if I had a sponsor. I told her I was connected with someone but it wasn't a true sponsor/sponsee relationship. She then offered to be my temporary sponsor, gave me her number and told me to call her anytime. Ahhhh.. that is why I had to get to that meeting! She offered temorary because she lives about 50 minutes away, and given my lack of time, getting together doesn't seem likely, but I've been thinking that I should set that determination aside until I've connected with her some.
Yep, God will do for me what I can't do for myself.
Blessings, Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
For about a year my then AH was on me to get a sponsor. He was in AA and therefore was the be all end all when it came to the 12 steps. Because of the constant hounding I felt guilty and ashamed because I didn't have a sponsor and was near quitting the program because I felt I wasn't doing it right (according to my then AH) I said a few times to him, jokingly, that I was waiting for a ray of light to beam down on the woman who was to be my sponsor and THEN I would know who to ask. It would be obvious. I was waiting for that Ray of light!!!
A few weeks later, after my Sunday morning meeting, after I had cried thru yet another meeting, a guy with many years of both programs approched me with another woman who also had many years in both programs and said "you need a sponsor, she could use another sponcee.....there ya go!" Yup, his name was Ray.
