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Forgive me if you get this post twice. Forgot to put a subject line and I don't think the first post worked.
Anyway, just wanted to say "Hi". It's been a while since I posted last, been dealing with life, getting to face to face meetings and trying to focus on myself. It's been pretty hard as my AH has been hospitalized with some fairly serious injuries (12 rib fractures, liver and lung contusion). He got out of hospital last weekend, I took a few days off work to settle him at home and two days ago, he returned to drinking. I expected this, but still feel sad about it. Anyway, enough about AH.
Thanks to all for your posts, they encourage me and inspire me to keep moving forward and trying to live my life as best I can. I ask my HP for help and assistance to do that, but while I'm waiting and working the program, I'll keep reading your posts!
With that name I imagined that maybe he was broken up as a result of your program work but then Naaaaaah. can't be!!
It's good to have you home. Your seat will always be saved.
There is always the option to go back to the bottle. Yes it is saddening. Yes still I am powerless. I had a sponsee go back out and this makes his third time over a period of 13 years. "...cunning powerful and baffling." Then too I have a female client who also had 13 years of sobriety and has gone back out to the degree that I think that she is dealing with "wet brain". Her dementia is growing and she's relatively young. I wanna cry and tantrum. I think I'll go outside and chant quietly to our ancestors who have past and remain around us for guidance and watchfulness. I won't let the attitude take me under. There are many others who are working the program well and moving farther and farther away from the terminal aspects of this disease.
I will remember your AH (I've never liked those initials) in my chant.
I'm sorry you have to deal with this. One thing I focus is when I am dealing with people who don't cope well is my own response to illness. I tend to want to tantrum and sulk too. I do not do that well when I am sick. I tend to totally withdraw and feel great self pity for myself. So while I don't go out and "use" per se my own response is not that healthy. I really struggle with self care.
I hope you will post often about how you are feeling. Maresie.
