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My heart is full, Having 3 grandchildren over, yesterday really touched my heart. The love and the Joy, I receive from them is so tender.
My youngest grandchild Ayden he is 2. His facial expressions alone have you smile, even when I try to teach something like no no to touching something that could hurt him. He gotten bitten by the neighbors dog (that was not loved right and no shots) Responsibility.. that one adult did not take on. Ayden told me several times that Bruno(my dog) has teeth. Think with this experience even at 2 years old, is learning about life and its journeys .And responsibilities we hope he learns for himself to not approach dogs for they have teeth.
Experience is a lesson that has helped me to where I am today.
One of my lessons was to learn Responsibly just as Ayden but in a different perspective.
When my life once was in a abusive relationship ,I took on one of The biggest responsibly of my life .As most mothers our Children really were our first. So protecting them was my responsibility. I took the abuse until I learned that this will effect them as well. I became responsible for three children on my own.
For this abuse I once lived I learned things thru Alanon . That I needed to take a stand and be: Responsible for myself and young children. Leaving made me a better mom.
As Ayden sometimes speaks with facial expression.. I too have done this in a different perspective.
If I was sad, my face showed it, Happy, anger you name the emotion my face made, most of the time ,could be read, what I feel in side. As a mother I too saw these expressions on my childrens face.
Sometimes facial expression tells a story with out words. Sometimes I expressed my self with stuffed emotions and you could read them on my face .Sometimes I would say something back, hurtful For I too was hurting from the words.
When I did say words without thoughtI made me on the amends list. For I could beat me up more than the person that said something first.
Being responsible goes along way deep within not just a pay check.
Love goes a long way too. But the day I learned to love me. .I became Free and found the serenity.. that I had long for By reading the people faces and listening to there words .Some would pop in that became an experience I too could relate too. Alanon was my teacher . my teacher in life. To grow and have someday what I admired in others .Still growing and experiencing ,new things, that fills me with Joy finally in my life..
When I became willing to be Responsible for myself. I worked the program into my life.
Thank you for reading my post .It has bin awhile since I have bin here. Surgery around the corner for me. I would like to share the power of prayer.
If someone is making you sad .pray for themFor I maybe the only one that does.
When I share my ESH prayers are coming in ..for I opened myself to let it out of self.. to LET GO and LET God. Today I let Go of my children to my HP (God) and leave them in the best place Letting God, Take over.
Thank you for your wonderful share. I don't think I learned responsibility for me till I got here. I had none most of my life. I was over responsible for others but definitely under responsible for me
Sooooooo nice to see you posting. You've come so far with your progress both spiritually and medically. Great post and I am so glad you got to spend time with the grandkids. What a gift you are to them!
I will for your upcoming surgery. Please keep us posted.
I love ya, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
for your upcoming surgery. Please keep us posted.