The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
This is the real me. I have left HEARTBROKEN behind.
After thinking about ' what a name does and says about someone...' I realised that I could never obtain complete recovery if I continued to be identified with HEARTBROKEN.
That is who I was, how I was, and where I was when I first joined this (((((((((((((((loving family)))))))))))))))))).
I had to pray and ask God to take that away from me. I no longer wanted to live in the old way. I asked for blessings to be given to all those who had ever hurt me, and also asked particularly for all that they would wish to be blessed with so that they would had everything they could ever need. I also asked that God would hold me close to His heart because I was so fearful.
I have a wonderful Sponsor, one that I could never have ever dreamed I would encounter and be in the company of. I thank God for that blessing every day. I want to work through this programme towards a holistic recovery and so I had to lose HEARTBROKEN.
Here I am ((((((((family))))))))) walking tall, having experienced the second miracle in a week. Here I am as ME, here I am as the person that I am meant to be. Here I am doing what I am meant to be doing. Letting go of the past, which I cannot change, and Letting God have that for keeps.
Just had to share all this with you and let you know that you have not lost the real me, you have lost Heartbroken and have gained Suzannah! And what'more I love her as she is [warts and all].
-- Edited by Suzannah at 20:23, 2008-03-30
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Out of the ruin of my past I have found the fortress of myself and I know how to defend it.
Strive for WISDOM; Seek SERENITY; NEVER compromise your INTEGRITY.
Well, hello Suzannah! I feel like I know you somehow.....LOL! What a great change to make! And what a beautiful name to be known by! I am happy to meet the new you and honored that you shared your journey thus far with all of us....
Thank you for sharing you with us....what a wonderful post of esh. Thank you for sharing your progress with us. I know it must feel so good to let go of what you needed to let go of. Keep working it...you are so worth it. your friend in recovery, rosie
WELCOME!