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Hi all, Yesterday while getting ready for work this song came on. And it has always made me think of him in the past. So of course I started to cry. I then asked myself why does this song have to be about him? It didn't. So I restarted the song and listened to it again. And this time I thought of you all, and how I felt when I first came here. So here are the lyrics with some of my thoughts added as to why I thought about alanon.
Phil Collins-You Will Be in My Heart.
Come, stop your crying, it will be all right Just take my hand, hold it tight I will protect you from, all around you I will be here, don't you cry
------------------------------------------------ Ok well you all really didn't say stop your crying, but you did say it will be all right. Even on the days I can't see it eventually things work out and inprove. And while I do feel protected in alanon, I wasn't shieled from anything becuase of it, except the harm I added to the situation. You all and my home group gave me tools to use so I kept to my own yard. -------------------------------------------------
For one so small, you seem so strong My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm This bond between us, can't be broken I will be here, don't you cry
------------------------------------------------- You all told me and continue to tell me how strong I am. lol most days I am okay with it, sometimes I don't want to hear it. But deep down I know I am. And that bond that ties all of us alanoners together can't be broken. Even when we may walk away from the program I know it is still there because I have felt it calling me back home. And I always feel safe in a meeting or talking with alanons or just chatting in the chat room. --------------------------------------------------
1-'CAUSE you'll be in my heart YES, you'll be in my heart From this day on, now and forever more
2-You'll be in my heart No matter what they say You'll be here in my heart, always
------------------------------------------------- I carry you all and the program with me everyday you all are with me. Hehe I bet some of you never knew a part of you was in Washington. -------------------------------------------------
Why can't they understand the way we feel? They just don't trust, what they can't explain I know we're different but, deep inside us We're not that different at all (repeat 1..AND)
------------------------------------------------ I took this last verse two ways 1) From my experience most non-12 steppers don't understand us, why we stay, why we feel the need to come to meetings, and on and on, they just don't understand. 2) Also My "A" (probably especially now that he has done what he has done) could/can never understand why I love him. He couldn't see in him what I can see. And even though the marriage is most certainly over, I still love him always will. -------------------------------------------------
Don't listen to them, 'cause what do they know? We need each other, to have, to hold They'll see in time, I know When destiny calls you, you must be strong I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on They'll see in time, I know, we'll show them together
------------------------------------------------- I do believe we need each other. We support one another, we love one another in a way, and for me you all have showed me what real love is. And for those of you who have never been to a f2f (face to face meeting) nothing (imho) can beat a good old alanon hug or when we circle together and hold hands to do the closing the love that one can feel at that moment is so strong. Also when i am hurting, there is always something someone said at a meeting or in something I read, or something funny comes to mind if I let it. You all pull me through sometimes without even knowing it. -------------------------------------------------- (repeat 1..BELIEVE ME..I'LL BE THERE) (repeat 2..YOU'LL BE HERE IN MY HEART..I'LL BE WITH YOU)
Always, I'll be with you I'll be there for you, always, always and always Just look over your shoulder (3) I'll be there, always ------------------------------------------------- Right now I am holding on to that promise. You all are always there. Because no matter what where ever i go for my ala-fix, I always hear what I need to. And right now I am a very much broken hearted person. He did sleep with that woman. And knowing that I have somewhere to go to hurt and be accepted just as I am is a comfort that goes beyond words.
Thanks for being here. You all keep me going on the days when I wonder why I should (well the kids help with that to)
Yours in recovery, Mandy
Oh and Serenity if you read this I was scrubbing the floor mats to my car last night, so lol another scrubbing post is on the way. LOL.
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
Now that's working a program! We can start are day over any time we choose too. And we can start a song over too!!!!!
You rock sister!!!!
Thanks for giving me a whole new way to look at music. Often those old "songs" that were special to me in the past make me feel down when I hear them now and remember what they used to represent to me....now I can look at songs like "Maybe I'm Amazed" in a whole new way....not about my relationship with my ex-wife but about my relationship to my HP and all of you!
Okay!!! now I am gonna get back to work....thanks for making me feel so "amazed" at how wonderful this program is, all over again!
I too have songs that repeatedly get me thinking and thinking and sometimes it is not good thinking about the things that these songs first represented.
Like David, you have opened up a new concept of loving these songs and replacing the hurt with the love I get from you guys and my God. What a way to go.
Thank you, and as I plod down memory lane I will avert my gaze to the wonders that have been shown to me during my walking the talk with my programme and this wonderful (((((((family))))).
(((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
Thanks again for this.
(who is struggling at this moment in time as I away the news of my xFIL passing and all that it means for so many of my other family...and watching another one succumb to this disease's ravages over time.)
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"The highest form of wisdom is kindness." The Talmund
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(who is struggling at this moment in time as I away the news of my xFIL passing and all that it means for so many of my other family...and watching another one succumb to this disease's ravages over time.)
