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I just wanted to share that my daughter (13) came into my room Sunday night at 4am - guess it was more like monday morning - and said she coundn't breathe. Then she got her inhaler and took a puff or two. She said her throat hurt so I took her in the bathroom and turned on the light and tried to get her to stick out her tongue and she was barely opening her mouth. Then she turned around, walked into the wall and passed out and I halfway caught her but she still got a good knot on her head. This is the 3rd time that I know of for sure and I think there are others when I wasn't home that she has passed out and just dropped. I called 911 and scrambled to get dressed and move boxes i pulled out with the intention of cleaning and the middle child (8) runs out of the room and pukes all over the hall floor right in front of the front door. So my Monday is off to an excellent start!!! About 8 guys show up (only guys I've had in my house in 18 months) and I decide to take her to the hospital because I want someone to tell me what's wrong with her. This has been happening for 2 years and there seems to be no end or explanation.
So we spend 4 hours in the ER (I had to bring the sick 8 yo and the 6 yo with me) and get the same old she just faints, we don't know why. We went through 2 er doctors, a chest xray, blood and urine samples and she was about to get an IV at 8 am but I couldn't stay there another moment I was about to pass out on the floor from exhaustion! She was dehydrated which happens all the time despite the fact that she drinks tons of water, so I bought her some gatorade and we went home!! I decided everyone was staying home as it would be pointless to go to school after getting up at 4am, and we all went back to sleep - so I missed work again yesterday. Luckily it was a day I was working to accrue some time so I didn't have to take any time off (that's my way of looking at it positively). The second Dr. said I should find a neurologist in Wilmington and make sure she's not having seizures.
At this moment I'm wishing... I had a clone me to just deal with kid issues. Actually I'd have the clone go to work and cook and clean and I'd just deal with kid issues LOL. Driving them around to appointments (always an hour away), talking to doctors, going to school meetings, sitting in the classroom if I have to!!!
SInglemomhood can be a real b****!! I know. My sons' dad died when they were very young...I was very young too, grieving the untimely death of the great love of my life.
Dealing with childrens' problems, sicknessess, and concerns alone is not an easy task. But it is what we have to do if we have no one with whom to share the burden. Perhaps it was easier for me because I did not have to work when the children were growing up. But, then, it is never easy being a single mom. We simply do what we have to do. I remember being terrified a lot of the time until I finally understood. I relaxed, enjoyed my kids, and let the rest of it fall where it may. That's all one person can do.
I am sorry you are having to bear this seemingly insurmountable situation. It WILL get better. I do hope you will follow up with finding the cause of daughter's fainting spells. These are symptoms that need to be assessed and addressed.
With caring,
Diva
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The irony for me is that I was afraid to do this alone. Now I am afraid to even take the risk on a relationship. I find myself avoiding even getting to know other people.
I put every egg I had in one basket, the relationship. I never thought to reserve any for me.
I imagine it is very very very hard to deal with the illness of a child. For me it was absolutely impossible to deal with the A and his illnesses. I am more and more aware that I absolutely could do nothing but leave him. As hard as it is to be on my own, it was tremendously hard if not totally impossible to be with him.
I went through this for years. Specialists are a god send and expensive as hell. You are doing such an excellent job. I know how your daughter feels. I can imagine how you feel. I am so sorry you all are going through this,.
Well, one kid passing out while the other is puking and what did the third decide to do, juggle knives? LOL! Dang CG! That is far more interesting than MY weekend! And you thought you needed a drug addict to keep you entertained!!!! I tell you what, you are one hell of a mom. I know, I remember having 2 kids in the ER with possible broken bones, one had a rash over her entire body and the baby had an eye swollen shut or something ( I have blocked it all out). All alone. But you're doing it!!! You rock!
horrendous, you are in my thoughts and prayers. When it kicks off, it really kicks off, still you did not have him in the background and you coped, well done.
Just reading this reminds me of the time mine had Whooping Cough and dad was sailing the seven seas and I had no-one to help either and not even able to go out with them.
If it had not been for the Padre's wife who collected my allowance and did came to do the shopping for me we would have died of starvation, in the meantime, I got one hour's respite when the district nurse arrived. That was the longest 12week stint of 24/7 nursing care I ever did and I collapsed with exhaustion at the end of every day only to get a couple of hours sleep. I was thank you in many ways that dad was absent, he was just another demanding child.
How I did it all, God alone knows, but we do. That's what mom's do, and we get the energy and the resources to keep on going.
Keeping you in my prayers.
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"The highest form of wisdom is kindness." The Talmund
