Things are getting better slowly but surely.  I am starting to let go of some
of my character defects that are coming back to me lately.  I mean past
experiences are reminding me how truly "imperfect"  I am.
I am letting  go of the need to control others, how I tend to be in the
"all about me" mode, the way I tend to not forgive myself for past mistakes,
and most of all how I do not run the show!
I am a work in progress and will never be perfect but I will continuely grow
day by day if I work the program the best I can. Today I am taking baby
steps to get my head back together enough so I can make decisions
based on what is right for me.  I am terrible at making decisions.  It
seems like in the past someone was always making decisions for
me.  That might be why I can't seem to make my own decisions.
I feel like I am repeating myself.
I know that God is in control and that I have to let Him do what is right,
and for me to get out of His way.
I guess I am searching for answers even though sometimes the answer
might be no!  I want it now but I guess I can wait until later.
I will stop beating myself up & remember--Easy does it!
I know that I should be patient because God isn't finished with me yet!
Like they say in meetings, take what you like and leave the rest!
I will stay sane, one day at a time!
That's all!