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I'm reading a wonderful novel/memoir right now ("Eat Pray Love", by Elizabeth Gilbert) and came across some dialogue that the author had with herself that really got to me. She was in the throes of loneliness and depression (and was struggling with the decision whether or not to take anti-depressants - which she didn't want to do). She picked up her journal and wrote this excerpt to herself - a practice that I'm beginning to understand and even try a bit. I know a few others on here who have used the idea of seeing ourselves from an outside perspective. And loving ourselves - exactly as we are today. I have found it very enlightening whenever I do that. Anyway - I think this passage is pretty powerful ...as always,take what you like.......
"I'm here. I love you. I don't care if you need to stay up crying all night long. I will stay with you. If you need the medication, go ahead and take it - I will love you through that as well. If you don't need the medication, I will love you, too. There's nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me."
Don't know about anyone else.....but I saw HP coming through in those words. Loud and clear.
I am sitting here in tears...I do not know quite why...but I am.
Depression and Loneliness is something that plagues me, and I fight it and fight it and fight it and don't LET GO...I do see strength, power, love, warmth coming through those words, loud and clear.
I just want to (((((((you))))))) for this share. I did not know it, but I really needed that tonight.
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"The highest form of wisdom is kindness." The Talmund
Aloha Round 3 and a huge Mahalo for your post. I know full well that sometimes my HP will speak thru another person and I have just been reminded again.
Oh, I just burst out in tears myself. Really hit home. Great post. I caught an interview with the author and think she has a good amount of recovery. Thanks for sharing this....
I had some real problems with that book but there were some wonderful moments also. I have found this is helpful and write this way in my journal. I am also speaking to myself internally in a very clear voice. It is HP taking up residence inside of me. HP is moving in and thank heavens, just in time. Great post, thank you- J.
I've read the book too. I'm not sure what the rules are about posting about non conference approved stuff. I know I've been reprimanded about it. So I won't say anymore.
