The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I hear the door opening at 5:30 am. He's sneaking back in again. I go in the living room and ask him to be quieter because our stepson and I are trying to sleep. He gets mad. I walk away and go back to bed. I hear the pill bottles rattling. After a few minutes, AH comes into the bedroom and turns on the lights and is looking for something. He finds it and the familiar sound of a rattling bottle echoes in the still morning. I ask him to be quiet as I am trying to sleep. He gets mad and says he's going to his Dad's. I tell him that if he leaves that is it. He leaves. Then he returns. Three times. The key grinding loudly in the lock as he grabs his pills. Then again as he gets something else. The third time is for his shoes. He grabbed his pills before his shoes. I ask for the keys back so he can stop it. I have them now. I feel like it's the beginning of change and am a little sad and little hopeful that my healing can continue and I can be stronger and stronger .
(((((lost))))) Good for you for taking some control of the reigns. This is a long process and usually not easy. One day at a time. You will keep growing stronger in the decisions you know you need to make. We're here for you.
Sometimes doing the hardest thing is the most empowering for us. You may not reaize it at the time but it is. After living in chaos for so long, we are deserving of serenity. Enjoy the moments. Now's the time to really concentrate on you and your recovery. Turn him over to his HP. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
