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Jean here keeping it real. Lots of happy this and merry that which is all fine and good and appreciated but for those who are not really feeling all that happy and merry, here is a small humble note from me who is not feeling all that merry and/or happy either. But that does not mean I am not grateful. I am a-ok and holding my own and counting my blessings and glad to be here.
Jean, I am sorry to read that you "...are not really feeling all that happy and merry...", however, today is just another day for me too and yet I cannot say I am not happy, for I am happy when I think of this wonderful family that we both share and all the warmth and love and happiness that is being tossed around.
I may not be happy about my situation but I am happy in myself when I think how much worse off I could be. I am dry, I am warm, I have friends, and I have their love that they are enfolding me in.
All this is being shared with you too, and anyone else who is not feeling particularly happy or merry.
I am alone, but not lonely. I am not happy wooopppee happy, and yet I am not sad either. I am quiet rather than merry and the sentiments that others have posted are, for me, very special and very real for I feel that they have come from their hearts in the spirit of the season.
So, I guess what I am saying is that I so hope that YOU will in time find happiness in the love that has been posted with those merry happy posts.
Love, Heartbroken.
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Thanks Jean. There's an awful lot of pressure to be merry and happy. I'm feeling grateful for what I DO have - which is SO much really. SO much. I'm grateful for my home, my job, my friends and family that love me, my sanity (on good days), my ability to keep on loving, the knowledge that my A is safe somewhere today, and I'm very grateful for this wonderful new place board that I've discovered (my lifesaver!). Merry?.... OK I'll try that. Grateful? YES! And for the blessings in my life, I am joyous.
I am sorry that you are not having a very good Christmas. I have felt those holidays, many, many times. But I have learned, like you that it's okay. Reminds me of the people who say that your wedding day is THE most important day of your life. Why can't everyday be the THE most important and prescious day of your life? Live life to the fullest, to the best of your being. Not everyday has to be happy and merry and bright. If you are have a calm and contented Christmas - good for you. So may Pipers Kitty and I take the time to wish you a very calm, contented, blessed Christmas. Much love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Claus
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Oh Jean thanks for that. Having a bad week and not due to the A either. Lots of other things but I know these too shall pass and my problems are minor compared to others that I know . Luv Leo xx
So may Pipers Kitty and I take the time to wish you a very calm, contented, blessed Christmas.