The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am new to Al-Anon and have attended seven F2F meetings since October 2007. I came upon this website and began to browse around in hopes of just finding others similar to my Alcoholic Situation. My F2F meetings are only once a week, so this looks like another option for information and being able to rant/vent/have a cow without repercussions. Reading some of the topics/issues that some have posted has been heartrenching to read. Mostly because I can very much understand the person's perspective and gain some peace in knowing that I am not alone in dealing with this, and that my thoughts and pain are shared in this horrible, difficult disease. Just knowing that I am not alone with suffering anger and pain (and lots of silence crying) from dealing/copeing with an Alcholic is somewhat comforting. Thanks for having something available out there and posting your views.
--Just For Now
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Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead.
I am new to this board as well, and it is wonderful to find others who can truly understand what you are going through. Even if its just to listen............
That is definitely one of the most positive things about this board, is the acknowledgment that you aren't alone, or crazy, or going through something that others won't understand..... There is a wide variety of experience and people on here, and I'm sure you will find it helpful and a positive experience.
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
welcome, all, its also really cool that it is anonymous and you can take what you need and leave the rest 24/7! i love this site and its an essential supplement to my F2F meetings, literature and Al-anon service. I just turned my home group onto this site and hope to share it with as many al-anoners as I possibly can because we can come here in the middle of the night when we are really stressing and fussing and its like an instant miracle! hugs, J.
Hi...I should probably post more often than I do..but I just sit here alone many, many nights & weekends and lurk and write things down in my journal that someone has posted that inspires me to keep movin' on. I'm still trying to put the hurt, pain, and anger, and love I have for my A husband that I left almost a year ago into something positive for myself. (17 days shy of a year I left him) (SIGH). I'm trying so hard to feel good about the decision I made to leave my hus- band...but...it is driving me crazy sometimes. I almost hate him (but I know I can't)...because he chooses his alcohol over me!! ewwwwww!! We still talk on the phone and we live in different states now and 3 hours away from one another...so that helps. I think if I saw him my heart would just melt and I'd want to go back and I know deep down inside that's a "NO-NO"! When I look at all the holes he burnt in our comforter ( I took pictures to prove it to people) on the bed falling asleep drunk...I'm wondering how in the hell he hasn't burnt up in that trailer being by himself. The grace of God I guess. And I have to assume it's the grace of God that is keeping him from killing himself or someone else as he's out there driving drunk! He did get busted for smoking pot while being on his prescription pain pills since I left and the doctor had to take him off them! GOOD! Because he was selling what he wasn't taking, and risking having us both put into jail for that crap! I've never been behind bars and he OBVIOUSLY didn't give a crap if I went with him! EWWWWWWWW!! See...it's those things I need to keep my focus on to keep strong. The holidays aren't bothering me whatsoever because I do not observe this one coming up anyway. It's the "this time last year I was packing and getting ready to leave" thoughts that are killing me for some reason! A year went by so fast!! And I guess what REALLY bothers me is...NOT ONCE...NOT ONCE...has he ever said he wants to do anything to save our marriage! I HATE THAT! And he calls me the IDIOT for leaving! Well... before I logged on here I was rea- ding the newsletter "Getting Them Sober" on-line and it had such great information! Not that I'll ever be able to use it to help my husband...but it's brought me another step ahead in my jour- ney away from the madness of it all. In other words "Oh! NO-O-O-OW I see"! "Ok...that helps me"! I want to shove all this information I'm getting about his disease down his throat! It's not ME who needs to be reading this and going through the agony as if it were me who has it!! Oh but thank I God I do know that I need to be reading it just the same to stay sane!! Although YOU ALL might be reading this and think differently! anywayzzz...I needed to get out how I'm feeling and it's other people like you all who'll post something and it gets my blood boiling and and my fingers typing! These next 17 days are gonna be so hard emotionally...BUT...I'm going to get through them I know that...BUT....I'm sure glad I have ya's to turn to and under- stand! Have a great rest of the week! Be safe! Hugs, Love ya'll!
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Today, I am grateful to be on the path of dealing with my life and continuing to grow truly stronger.
