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Hubby and I are both struggling today and could use some prayers. His spinning thoughts are coming back and his psychiatrist has left. We can still get meds, but we need someone like her to help him. I'm struggling because I am tired emotionally and physically. Called in sick today, and he's having panic attacks. I actually went and got him a bottle so he could sip it and it helped I hate to say. I vowed never to do that, but here he is calmer, but beating himself up. Hasn't even finished the bottle like he use to. He's sooo lost and I'm sooo exhausted. We won't give up the fight to get better, but could use your love and prayers. We have to find him a new doctor who knows what to do. I may not loose him to the bottle, but I sometimes wonder if I may loose him to his brain. He truly has a chemical inbalance. Sad to see. Today was just a really bad day. Because I'm ready to drink the vodka, and I hate it. Okay thanks for letting me vent.
Love and blessings to you all.
Live strong, Karilynn (who's not feeling so strong at the moment) & Pipers Kitty
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Karilynn, you are always, always in my deepest prayers and positive thoughts. I will hold you especially close while you make your way through this journey. You are a strong girl, and you will make it to the other side of this abyss. Hold tight and keep the faith.
With love and caring,
Diva
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You are such an inspiration to me and have been so strong in situations that not many people could handle. So, though I know you don't feel it right now.......this too shall pass and you will get through it with the grace and love that you so radiate. You and hubby are in my prayers. Feel them, dear Kari and let God pour out his peace on you.
Karilynn you are such a beautiful light here and I am grateful for you in whatever flavor you (and the kitten) show up in!! I know you and he will be OK and tomorrow will bring a fresh beginning. I know how hard that doctor piece is: its really a crucial life line. Sometimes the ONLY crucial life line and I am so sorry that a good doctor has left your life. But someone better is due to come along or else HP would not have made it so. My love and thoughts are with you for a brighter tomorrow, hugs and love, J.
hi Karilynn , you hand in there girl , get out that phone list and make some calls . Am sorry about your hubby ,hopfully u will find help soon . Louise
I have a friend who suffers with a chemical imbalance, in fact I have been supporting her for the last year and the last six weeks have been very bad, and her medication was not right causing her all sorts of dreadful complications and insecurities et al.
I just wanted to let you know I am fully aware of how hard it is to deal with these sort of problems. I am full of compassion for YOU in the situation that you now find yourself faced with.
I will be praying for you and your H daily. I do not know your background as well as some of those who have posted as I am relatively new to this family, as you will be aware, for you have been a wonderful person to me during my time here in giving and sharing and responding to my posts.
I pray for peace, courage, strength and medical support; it may be that new medical support might just be a revelation [as has turned out to be the case for my friend as a result of having to deal with new people in her present situation].
Here in England we have a CRISIS UNIT which comes out to support this sort of trauma too, and I wonder if you have anything like this in the States that you might be able to get support from in the interim? The team and her doctor told me that the CRISIS UNIT together with my 24/7 support [though it has taken a lot out of me] enabled my friend not to be hospitalised, which was a really big issue for her. I pray that the right support will come to you too.
With love, Susan Heartbroken.
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((((karilynn))) sending you love and prayers. I know how difficult this is. I know the feeling of being exhausted physically and emotionally. This too will pass as others have said. In the meantime, remember to take care of you. Be gentle with yourself. Know you have the tools to help you through this difficult time. Take it a minute at a time if you need. I'm glad you shared with us. You are not alone...and you are loved. sending you much love and prayers, rosie
Sending much love and prayers your way for a speedy recovery to both you and hubby. You will make it through this. You have always been such an example to me in my own life as I attempt to work my program.
I will pray that HP will give you the strength you need, and that hubby's HP will bring him through this crisis in his life. Hold each other close during this time.
I will also pray for your Pipers Kitty because I know he must be worried about his Mommy and Daddy.
Love and Blessings,
Claudia
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Good morning! It is 5:40am, and we are up and talking. Thanks for your love and prayers. I like showing up in different colors because I believe that no matter how gloomy things look, there is always a rainbow somewhere. He's beating himself up but feeling better. I'm okay too. We had a snowstorm and it was glorious to watch. I'm getting my haircut today and will start decorating for the holidays. Easy does it. There is only one way to get through a snowstorm (besides snuggling and drinking hot chocolate) and that's to put your head down and put one foot in front of the other.
Love and blessings to you and your families.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
P.S. Hubby by the way, prays for you and your loved ones to recover. Just thought you should know.
-- Edited by Karilynn at 06:08, 2007-12-04
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So glad to hear you are feeling better. Love coming your way and the hope that something positive will come from this dark spot. A fresh snow is lovely isn't it.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Karilynn - I am glad to hear that you are making it though one step at a time. This is really the first time that I have heard someone refer to the emotionally imbalanced part. So many times I feel like there is such emphasis on the alcohol, but not on the other aspects. (Maybe I just haven't seen it b/c I am new to this) Anyway, you are not alone. My husband suffers from depression, panic attacks to name a few. Sometimes these are my most difficult times to get through. At least when he is drinking he is happy?!? I have given him an extra pain pill before to help calm him down because we couldn't get ahold of the doctors. It is a scary point to be. Unfortunately because we love them so, we hate to see them in pain and want to do whatever we can to help. I haven't figured out what the best choice is on that one.
I do know it is hard to see them going through such a difficult time when they are lost inside of themselves!
Hang in there. Your voice is so strong and helpful to so many. Hopefully I can be there for you too! I love the analogy about the rainbow. I posted in a color because of you! I will be praying for the two of you!
Take time to look after yourself. Do you have any sick days you can take off just to re-charge the batteries a little? Try and get some rest in some form even if it just taking 30 minutes to read a book. Find the sanctuary in your home that you and Pipers Kitty can have a little time out sending love your way. Luv Leo xx
(((karilynn))))) so good to see that the days are getting better for you and husband. just a thought... but could the doctor that had to leave refer you ..... or someone else from the clinic or the local hospital in the care department he is in need of ...help to locate a doctor/nurse for him? i pray answers come very soon. that you get a call to answer these prayers.
sending prayers and know your always in my thoughts, you have always been such an inspiration to me. love yas much!
takecare(((()))of You and much love to (((pipers and hubby)))) toooooooo.
((((((kari))))))))))))))) You have always been my inspiration. I am keeping you and hubby and Pipers in my prayers always. This is such an awful disease, it steals our loved ones away from us, just like a cancer. I think my AH has a chemical imbalance also, because of his extreme mood swings, but he will not see a doctor. It is so hard to watch someone you love change from kind and loving, to raging and hating themselves and everyone else. Keep each other close. Oh, I LOVE snowstorms too, as long as I can stay inside. Makes me feel badly though for those who are not as fortunate as I am, to at least have a home. Makes me feel bad for animals who have to be outside in it, too! Love in Recovery, Becky1
