The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I feel like I have got really strong after my melt down the other day. I feel like I can make a plan to pull myself out of this mess and execute it. Right now I think its all workable and I can move along through it. I feel motivated and resilient. I did not feel that on Monday I felt alone, isolated and totally hopeless. This morning on my way to work I was thinking of how I was when I got here. I had no idea how to get away from the A. I had no road map, no idea, no nothing. I used to ask people to help me because I was so completely helpless. A lot has changed since then. I have changed, my whole attitude has changed. I am far more focused on me and what I need to do. The A's issues are off there somewhere. Sure I care that he has a horrible life but I'm no longer wiling to let his horrible life invade mine. I am not willing to let anyone's horrible life invade mine. I am conscious that I have to take care of me no one else will. The A certainly never did.
Thanks for being there for me. I can move forward now. I know this next few years are going to be one long hard slog but they are workable.
WAHOOO!! Maresie!!!!!!! That's so good to hear. Now that you're out of the slump, keep your eye on the prize. See it, believe it, achieve it!! You can do it!!!! For every bad thought, counter it with a good thought. Before long it becomes habit and your whole outlook will change for good.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.