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As you all know I really sweated to get the current job I have now which is a pretty long commute from my house. I leave my house at 6:00 a.m and rarely get back to the house till 7:00 p.m Then I often do another 2 hours or so at the 2nd job on top of that. I've been putting feelers out for a better job for a while. I do not get benefits with this job and no holiday either. In this job they have a week off at christmas for which I don't get paid.
I also dont' get paid for Thanksgiving either.
the house I live in is terrible. Some of the people there are specious to say the least. I heard today that one woman sits outside someone's window and then repeats what she hears there! I could not believe my ears!!!
I live in a tiny tiny space. I love my dogs. I really love my cats too. I am in crippling debt and have no idea how I am going to pay the creditors back. I am looking at going to some credit resolution place that can help me.
I know I am much much better off than I was 6 months ago when I was earning zilch and living on a credit card. I know I am going to move forward but there are some days like this one I just want to cry and cry and cry and then cry some more. And just take a few days off from this incressant treadmill.
You know you have alot of support here at MIP! We all want you to make it. Maybe it is the law of attraction. I had a terrible week at work and home. I need to change my thoughts. Don't give up.
Long long ago, I found myself in a circumstance where I needed two jobs to get my debts paid too. Office job days and 5 nights plus Sat at a flower shop so I basically had only Sunday off and I learned to make Sunday morning special for me. I can't remember what I did Sat nites...maybe sleep!
I went to church, then took some change I saved during the week or money from deposits on cans/bottles to treat myself to the Sunday paper and breakfast in a restaurant where I lingered with my newspaper. Of corse, I had no social life or friends other than the people I worked with or met at church but this was my big time out.
Then the rest of Sunday afternoon I spent getting ready for the next week of work - got gas, groceries, laundry, clothes picked out & ready for 6 days and cooked something big like lasagna so I could put some individual portions in the freezer. Breakfast was cereal w/oj, lunch was a can of green beans or soup with shredded cheese and supper was something out of the freezer with protein.
Sunday night I enjoyed tv and some treat, snack or something special so that I eeked out a morning and evening to do what I wanted to do.
Not sure, but thought this might give you an idea on how to carve some time out for yourself. Another idea is if you work sitting days, you might be able to pick up a waitress job evenings because I am amazed at the tips that can be made these days at a family restaurant.
You are going to be tired but get the rest you need and lots of TLC for yourself too. Easy does it, whenever you can.
hugs, ddub
-- Edited by ddub at 01:20, 2007-11-15
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"Choices are the hinges of destiny." Pythagoras You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
I agree with the law of attraction. Positive thoughts attract positive things and negative attracts negative. If you think about the positive things that you are grateful for and think of the negatives in terms of how you want them to be and believe they will be then I think things will get better for you.
I think you are doing well despite everything, its a big achievement to be able to keep the animals. By the way, claude my cat disappeared and turned up in the hot press. I want to get counselling for him, he's fine, but isn't in a hurry to go back there again. Yes I do think you should create some space for yourself as it says in the previous post, take care
