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Hi all ~ I just need to vent ~ As most of you know, I had to put my precious cat, Buster Boy, down this past Thursday morning.
It was the hardest thing my husband and I hever had to do - he was our baby with fur and a very big part of our lives and who we had become. Crazy as that may sound to some.
The "firsts" have been really hard. The first time we woke up with out him in our bed, the first time we took a shower and he wasn't laying on the toilet seat absorbing the warmth. The first time we left the house and there was no buster to say goodbye to. The first time we came home and he didn't greet us at the door. The first time we cuddled together to watch a movie on TV and he didn't jump up on our lap. Today we just got home from food shopping and he would always jump up on the table to check out the bags as if to say "whatdya get me whatdya get me?" ... We soo miss our baby.
It hurts to sit in my big reclining chair ... it was automatic that Buster Boy would jump up and lay on my lap or my chest or on the arm of the chair if I had my laptop on my lap (how he resented my laptop ::grins::)
I wake up with a heavy heart and it is hard to get out of bed. This hurts so much and we seem to alternate our "buster moments" one minute I am fine and my hubby is not and vice verse.
Anyway ~ that is that ~ I just had to share. Buster had a great life - lived a long life - 18 years but it was way too short a life for us! (I've attached a pic if anybody is interested =) Buster Black :)
Oh, Hon, 18 yrs is a long time. How wonderful for him and you that he had such a long, happy life. I had to put down my old dog Jake a year ago last Aug. It was very hard not to have him around. My youngest son will never even know him. But he was 14 and had lived a good life. I had had him since he was about 4 wks old and would have been killed if I had not adopted him.
I realize another could never replace your dear feline, but we have others and they help ease the pain. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to go down to the shelter and have a look. There are so many in need of good homes. It would help ease your pain and take the agony out of the life of one with no home at all.
It's just a suggestion. Please don't take offense. We love our other dogs and cats too, although we had them before we lost Jake, so it's not quite the same. We are dog and cat people, and I could never imagine our house without one or two, at least, around.
Love in recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
No offense at all is taken. We absolutely plan on getting another kitty.
Just not yet. We know we need to grieve first and that we can't bypass this process ~ maybe in a couple of months (after the holidays - since we are planning on traveling anyway)
It just hurts so bad and I feel better after "purging" the pain with my friends here at MIP
so sad, yes I recall the firsts, too. My cat walked away to die; I never found her body but knew she needed to go and do that and I let her one morning, our unspoken understanding as clear as I am typing these words right now. It was a beautiful spring morning with blossoms on the apple tree. She was super old. I adored her and she adored me JUST AS I AM. Total unconditional love and that is what its all about (for me). She taught me so much about it. I never got another cat. Its been 4-5 years. Some day, I will, when I am ready.
I have never had a love like that before or since. What can I say?
Thank you for this post dee. As an animal lover, I have had to put down several in my lifetime. Always from old age ailments. It never gets any easier, but I try to look at it this way; being able to end their misery is a gift that we can give them. I would never be able to stand seeing my beloved pet suffer, and when then end of their viable life comes, they do not want to suffer either. Rest assured you did the right thing. You will miss your kitty all your life. But when the time is right, you will open up your heart and your home to another fuzzy baby.
Best wishes,
Diva
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