Hi guys, all is well. My dad did call finally today and I am ok. He seemed really insecure. I think I feel stronger because of you all. I just thought I am not going to worry, I will put up some boundaries like you said and remember who I am and how far I have come. He seemed so nervous. Here he is 2000 miles away and basically he called for 2 minutes to talk about the weather after not talking for a year. Made alot of sense but in away it is so his MO. He is either distant or wayyyyy toooo close. There just isn't any middle ground. I think I have decided that as nice as it was to be so close to him at times, that the price was too high. I don't want to go there anymore. I love him dearly but his insanity carries too high a price. I used to feel very priviliged to be allowed inside his world but now since I have stepped into recovery it is like being in the dark. It does not hold that comfort it did before.

I am so grateful I have come to this place, that I see what I see now. I am just going to enjoy this day and not worry about it. I will pray for him, pray he doesn't act out, like midnight phone calls in a panic. That was a boundary I asked him to respect.

Thanks for everything, it is good to know you all are here. I know there will be times when I get so upset and just knowing you are here makes all the difference.

You are definately my treat. :)
Bella