Behind these eyes lie deep dark wells,
wells of emotional no one knows of,
deep dark emotions stir,
"give them not away" I say,
"let no one see the deeper side of me".
Behind my eyes lies pain and heartache,
fear, rejection lie in wait,
waiting for the right moment,
to bust the walls and drown my soul,
but I must keep strong,
I won't let them drown me.
The concrete that holds me together,
family and friends dear to me,
those I trust and love,
still the pain tries to emerge,
like a dam lets water emerge,
I let little emotion out too but enough to deal with,
enough to contain, enough to control.
When will this well of pain dry up I wonder,
the fear surrounds me and taunts me,
the clouds cover my eyes,
the cries blare into my ears,
the knife of pain drives into my heart,
will it stop, will it ever?
I believe I see the sun behind the clouds,
I think its there for me,
but I must fight the elements tooth and nail,
climb the mountain of pain and distress and fear,
here I will become victorious,
here I will become....
ME, my true self hiding below afraid of everything.