The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have lived in fear my entire life. Intense fear of the next intoxicated belligerent episode. Will it be loud? Will it last long? Will anyone be physically injured? Will someone leave mad? Will it be me? For many years it was my mother who brought this chaos to my life. And I thought I had fixed that part of my life when I walked away from her. But I had others in my life. Others who would continue to feed the fears and keep the ball rolling were my mother had left off. And without missing a beat the chaos continued. I have never known a holiday or celebration without this fear. I have longed for peace. And now I see that I have the power to give that gift to myself. I can choose who I allow into my life. I can choose who I give the power to hurt and scare me. I can say NO! No more fear! No more chaos! No more three ringed circuses! No more invisible elephants in the living room!
Thank you all for your kindness and support. It really means so much to me. And I hope you enjoy the poem: Life is what you think it is and gives you what you dare to dream it will.