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Wow, was interesting to see that topic when I came here today to post about my son. I posted seperately because carolinagirl at least has something to pin it on. I got the tail, I got the blindfold, but I have no clue where this jackass is. lol
Between my fearing the worst outcome for: -my son speaking -I tried to call someone today and they didn't pick up and I went right to what if they hurt or Are they upset with me? -my job security
I've had this huge pit in my stomach all day and that heavyness in my chest when I'm really stressed. Made a gratitude list today, somehow everything that bothered me also ended up there in a way. Which is cool. That lasted for a little bit. Had an hour w/ social worker, felt alot better, then bam...right back there.
I guess this is the ole' waiting for the other shoe to fall thing. I just don't understand why or how to work through it. Kinda strange.
Bob
-- Edited by bobump at 15:55, 2007-09-25
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You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
have you thought of 'hungry, angry, lonely, tired...halt'. it sounds to me like you might need some rest. anything that is a challenge for my kids brings up emotions for me whether i like it or not! easy does it! i will miss your posts. thanks for the shares. florrie
Personally, in my own selfish way, I hope you hurry back here, but then that's my controlling instinct isn't it. Be well, Sheesh I had to come back on Edit to write my own nick! rofl Mspw
(((Bob))), I so agree with mspw, I want ya to hurry back to. Your metaphors are beautiful, and your ability to see program everywhere is inspiring. I hope your time away is good for you. But I am sure you know we will miss you, I know I will.
Yours in recovery, Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
I want to tell you to stop the impending doom thoughts! Does God give you those thoughts?NO! Does He give us fear? FEAR is just a feeling, a good one when used in the right way , ie, to run away from the elephant that's about to step on you, but not good in a 'what if' thought! God says "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, thought's of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope!" Jeremiah 29:11
God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind! 2nd Timothy 1:7
Stop those thoughts! Yell Stop if ya have to! You have control over the thoughts you let roam your mind! You can choose to think something other than what just pops into your head, so "choose " to think those thoughts that will lead to you having peace and serenity inside!
Just my humble opinion, and a suggested, registered, soapbox special for tonite's dining in the menu of your mind!
I did that yesterday.... (boy, must be the moon), and until I found a quite place and reflected on the fact that all this fear is simply a lack of faith... and talked to my HP about what if any of these things is he not able to fix....
I realized that he can fix all of them if I let him... it *will* all work out. My stress is my own booby trap. 'Course I had to take some advil and just go to bed, but I believe that more today.
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
Thanks for pointing out that the fear is a lack of faith, I have to remember, things will work out as they are supposed to and when the time comes I'll do what I do and he'll react however he reacts and everything will fall into place. I just need to be quiet and listen to what HP is telling me I should do. I don't want to be rude or mean or squash his hope, but at the same time I want to be clear and strong and do the right thing for my son. The other two kids don't particularly care about seeing him - well certainly not the oldest anyway. She has tons of resentments toward him.
