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As many of you know, my 6th grandchild will be 1 month old tomorrow. Jace is a beautiful healthy little man - born to our addict daughter.
She struggled during this pregnancy and I prayed like all of you do, that she would do better this time. But the disease knows NO boundaries.
Her boyfriend came home yesterday to find her under the influence. He made her leave & leave the baby with him. Don't know where she's at, who she's with or what she's doing - have a pretty good idea - cause the basic behaviors never change - only worsen.
By God's Grace, there has been some healing between the boyfriend & us - so prayerfully, we will still get to see Jace -I'm sure Dad will need some help. Please, Please God let us be a part of that baby's life.
As an adult, I can see my part in chosing to be in a marriage with an alcoholic/addict - part of the things I go thru may be some of my own making - but it ticks me off that my precious grandchildren ages 5, 2 and 1 month old are so hurt when yet they are so innocent. No other way to say it, but that sucks. I know - I'm powerless.
So, last nite was about doing what I could - taking care of Rita - praying, giving the situation to the God of my understanding, writing an FU letter to the disease, a bubble bath, and a Little Debbie Snack Cake (ok - so that probably wasn't the healthiest thing - but Progress not Perfection - it helped).
Today is just about One Minute at a Time - it would have been nice to pull the covers over my face & stay in bed all day - but Life goes on. So here I am - Living, breathing, feeling, and doing the Next Right Thing - whatever that happens to be. I may be powerless - but the God of my understanding isn't - so my trust and faith will rest in my HP.
Thanks for letting me share - thanks for listening -
May each of you be blessed with a day filled with Serenity & Joy, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
Oh Rita....it can tear your heart right out...can't it? For some reason I am glad that it is my son and not my granddaughter's mother that has the disease. I don't know why but I just feel like they need her more. I hope you can keep taking care of you. It is one of the hardest things in the world to do...I think.
I will keep you and your family in my prayers and also want to let you know that I feel so much compassion for your daughter. She never asked for this disease.
That is so very sad that your daughter has once again succumb to this disease. Good for the boyfriend though for having boundaries and asking her to leave. My prayers will be with all of you and that the boyfriend will reach out to you all for support when he needs it. It does suck and there is really nothing anyone can say to ease that pain. Just know that you are not alone and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope you have a restful weekend.
Hugs, Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
I have a 10 month old granddaughter stuck in my mess also. All I can say is god speed. We have to help however we can to make the world right for these little ones who only ask for love. They want so little from us. My life right now, belongs to a little girl named Madison Nichole. Born 10/19/06, she is my life, my heart and the reason why I keep breathing.
((((( Rita )))))- There are so many times that not knowing what tomorrow will be like is so hard. It can actually drive us mad crazy and weaken us and knock us down. That is the time that day by day doesn't even work and we have to switch ourselves to hour by hour or minute by minute, so we can stay calm and take care of ourselves. It is so hard when little children are involved in this awful disease. I am so thankful to God, that my 3 children are with me, I am not an A, and I try so hard to give them a normal, healthy life. I don't know why their Father is an A, but that isn't for me to worry about anymore. It is what it is, and my children are my rocks and they are my life. I take care of me, so I can take care of them. You are doing the right thing, as hard and painful it can be. Your Daughter's Boyfriend did the right thing. Your grandchildren are going to be fine as long as their Dad is there for them and their family, including you. I will say prayers for you and your family, and stay at your pace, you are taking care of YOU, and that way, you can be there for your family.
P.S. Believe me.... Little Debbie's are great therepy, and do not let anyone tell you different !!!!!! I have had my share of Little Debbie's and Oreo's.
