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I have a sense of calm over the past two days I have not had for a year or more. I feel like I can detach from the madness and take it easy on myself. I no longer feel absolutely dripping with resentment and rage. When I'm confronted with people who are really reactive, manipulative and demanding I no longer feel absolutely fused to them.
These last months have been some of the hardest in my life. At the same time I have never had to apply all the tools so vigorously in order to survive. Tonight I have a long hard haul to get the furniture I have in there and do the things I need to. Yet for once I am looking forward to the task. I normally just dread and drudge through the day. I have a lightness now I did not have before. I also have energy that I did not have before. I do know know what has happened to me and I know for sure its not my wonderful dog Pepi's doing. I think it is largely due to al anon and the wonderful support, understanding and encouratement I found here no matter how dreadful my life has been.
Don't get me wrong all my troubles are not over. Pepi is not a magic formula. Nevertheless I do feel far far far more confident that I can handle matters. I was always on total overwhelm before.
Let's hope this positivity for me can be a new beginning.
Beautiful share. Isn't it wonderful when we are aligned with the universe? Blessings to you. Thank you for the uplifting message of hope and encouragement. Keep up the good work. It's often our attitude that changes.
When I read this, I stood up and cheered!!! I have been following your journey and to hear that you are finally feeling the sweetness of some relief really is an inspiration to me . I SO appreciate your reminder that this road is filled with lots, lots, and lots, of tiny excrutiating steps--I have needed to realize what progress really is and your posts help me see what progress is.
Hmmm sounds like.....serenity? You SO deserve this! I have found in my personal experience the longer I am away from the A the greater my serenity! LOL You have done everything you are supposed to do and you're doing great!
. I SO appreciate your reminder that this road is filled with lots, lots, and lots, of tiny excrutiating steps--I have needed to realize what progress really is and your posts help me see what progress is. 