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one dog was delivered to me last night. She is so relieved I can see it in her. I had a friend help me move quite a bit of stuff last night. Now I face another big night of moving furniture (I really have very very little). The plan is to have the other dog arrive next week. I am hoping that he will not take her back to the place he's living at.
I can't make out much of what is going on for him but he is very depressed, stuck and afraid. I stopped raging at him which is new for me. He has gone back down to the place and acts like it is something he wants to do. I can't imagine why he would want to stay being ripped off but he can't get beyond today.
I am so looking forward to the weekend of finally making a leap in having my pets with me and having a place that will be a bit more relaxed. At the same time I am sharing a home with other people and I fully expect there to be many many issues. I am just very confident in knowing that I can and will resolve them.
I am also trying to work on what's my next step. Some of the next step involves finances which will mean getting a weekend job for a while. I am willing to do that now. I was not before. Some of it also involves working on my own personal health which is not good at the moment. I'd like to lose weight, work on my cholesterol and more.
I can't tell you all how wonderful it is to have my dog. I walked her this morning and it was such a joy to see her relaxed and just able to focus on being a dog. I know being around the A in his "breakdown" has really hurt her. Now she will just be taken care of and have time to play and walk and eat and sleep which is all a dog needs.
thank you so much to all those people who encouraged me to keep at it to keep looking, to keep prayng I could have her. I really am very happy to have her as my companion. I know its a great hardship to have her at the same time i think all my pets keep me very grounded and real.