The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Convo this afternoon with my sponsor: Sponsor: So I heard about the convo with Mommy Me: Are you mad at me? Sponsor: Mad? Why on earth? Me: Well, we've rehearsed this for like, ever, and you told me to be really super cautious and all... Sponsor: Of course be cautious! This is sensitive territory for both you and Mommy. And, if nothing else it brings up a host of bad memories for you Me: Yeah. I prayed before for God to give me the words that were direct but loving, honest but sincere, and above all to treat her as a child of God because she is, even if I hurt in this relationship Sponsor: Excellent! Yes, that's what I mean by cautious. There was no way to do this without going into emotional territory. Both of you were gonna hurt. But, hopefully, a dialogue was gonna come out of this, and some long standing baggage was gonna get dealt with once and for all. That this didn't happen (sighs) is not a reflection on you Me: My stomach is still sucking itself in. The jello feelin in my legs is gone, though Sponsor: Good. Good Me, lump in my throat: I'm just...all...I don't know Sponsor: Mommy is suffering from the "I want what I want when I want it." And, sadly, in my opinion, she's willing to step on whomever to get what she wants from whomever whenever. (sighs again) It is tragic that she is not seeing how you are offering what you can give in this relationship and she is only seeing what she cannot have, because, really she is missing out on someone I really love
