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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I think its going to be months to get the truck away from the A legally. There is not much I can do about it but go through the process step by step. I have to go back to court on June 20th and hopefully I will get the order then. Even then I may have to go get a contempt order to make him comply.
In the meantime he still has the dogs and I have not seen them since May 10th which is terribly hard on me. I have not had contact with the A since May 17th.
He is working in the area. I feel at this point for me its over. Taking my dogs is the last straw for me. He's taken the truck lots of times. He does it to punish and it is very effective. The issue is that I am not wiling to be punished anymore. This isn't a relationship its a dictatorship. Its his way or punishment.
I have been working 7 days a week just to try to meet a few bills. I am desperately behind on a great deal of them. I will now have to look for another 2nd job. I can do all of that of course. What used to totally short circuit me all the time was the A's craziness and his need for chaos. I really do feel he craved that as much as he craved whatever substance he was taking.
I miss being able to post often at the same time I feel like I am getting past some of the things that had me on the edge for so long, finances being one of them.
my thoughts are with you going through this hard time. i'm glad you had a chance to post, today, and will be looking forward to your next one.
i've found that these are the times when i can get a good look at my own character. as hard as this day or that day may seem, i can still look in the mirror and like the person i am -- even moreso as i progress in my program.
love cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
I like what CJ had to say. I *KNOW* what you are doing, putting as much of this chaos to rest for YOU is plain hard work, but you are just so willing to do what is needed. When you look "in the mirror", there's a very capable and strong woman looking back at you.
Being in the alcoholic chaos isn't the end of the world, you can move into a new world. That's your example set for all of us!
