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It really wasn't as bad as I thought and I was the least addicted to things in the room. I confesed I liked my painkillers probably a bit too much and they said to keep coming back. It was really hard for me to hear stories of crack addicts, alcholics, ect that have had years of abuse and here I am a month into taking more then I should but I was welcomed with open arms. My ah(sober) has been a big help and it's funny because I have found so much strength in him and NEVER realized how friggen hard it was to stop and addiction and mine is extremely small in comparison to his. God Bless the alcoholic that can quit. MY GAWD it's scary to withdrawl. I found out with my own minor addiction that I wanted someone with me, I wanted someone to say "hey you can do this and I will help you where you ask that you need me" I loved just getting a hug even knowing I had no idea if I will take another Vicodin but every word helped. I can not imagine being in the head of an alcoholic, I wonder how scared my best friend was when she was dying, when she was withdrawling, what in the hell was my husband feeling. Sober one day is a miracle, just trying is even a bigger miracle. We can make a difference for them, we really can. It's the scariest most horrible things to fight, you are all needed in your alcoholics, or addicts life rather you know it or not. They are scared Sh*tless. Love you all, just wanted to share.
Thank you for this rare insight. I hear my AH saying over and over that I AM PART OF HIS RECOVERY! And I always push that aside and think to myself "Yea right!". I have never had an addiction before and pray that I never do. Good luck in your journey of recovery. Sincerely, QOD
Congratulations on a huge step!! Thanks for sharing it with us. I think it does so much good to hear about these experiences! Everybody can learn something. Good luck to you on your journey. You are already showing great strength.
(((((friendofyours))))) I'm sorry for your pain but glad you went to the meeting instead of denying.
You're very valuable to Al-Anon because you know the pain of addiction. It's hard for the ones of us who haven't gone through addiction to realize how much pain an alcoholic/addict is in. Most of the ones I've known haven't acted like they were in pain. In fact, they acted as though they had a great handle on everything! I used to work with alcoholics - some of them high functioning in top positions with the Gov't. Only one that I knew of ever got in trouble in their jobs. One, an Air Force Colonel got very drunk and made an a$$ of himself at a Christmas party. Other than that, everyone knew he was alcoholic but he was very intelligent and successful with his job.
