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I have been depressed and anxious at the same time. I saw my A tonight--it was good. But it's me. I feel these feelings. After having this surgery, and now without the use of my left arm, my A is gone. I am trying to make friends. Got barely any sleep last night. Please pray I get some rest. 2 ladies from a small church nearby are coming again to help me with my house. One of them brought me a set of dishes ans silverware. How sweet. Yet I am stll down. Can't seem to "get it all together" I know others have felt this way. I am cobfused too. Thank God for small miracles, but I still feel like do do.
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(((((hippie))))) A's just aren't reliable. I'm assuming your surgery went well. Wow! dishes and silverware - yes, that was really nice. I'm sure they're praying for your full recovery as I am.
It's normal to be down after surgery and dealing with an A is difficult too, so don't be too hard on yourself. Sometimes when I'm down I just have to go with it and reminding myself that "this too shall pass". Take care of yourself, watch a funny video, and talk to God.
i just wanted to say~ remind you that you have a Higher Power God beside You, with You, IS with You at all times. AND that its "ok" to let this be a comfort to you when you seem to feel alone. you can turn that over to your HP! Let it Gooooo. Let HP take care of those things you cant control., which is everthing except your self. do what you need to take care of yourself and your home. let HP take care of your A. at times when i'm letting the A get to me; at an ~ emotional level by allowin the makin of & takin on of the A's c*aP ..... in a way that only the A can to make me feel like " i'm supposed to." I realize now that i have the right to step back from it, both physically and/or within my head knowing i'm worth making the decision ... within me ... to "STOP" letting that happen. to "STOP" the thoughts....( as i recognize) those thoughts are trying to take over my *train of thought.* I have the right to chse... i make the decision to decide that positive thoughts be what will fill me up. i have that as my own personal choice. when feeling confused, frustrated.... lonely, can become being alone and being alone can ....also become ..... (WITH ALANON I RECOGNIZED) it can be "a comfort" because at the moment i feel the aloneness, (or loss ofmy serenity) i can also open my heart to let Higher Power fill the void. everytime . its ok to let my Higher Power give me back the serenity i know i possess. that is all my own. that belongs only to me.
in the alanon 12 steps book there is stated something along the lines of;....... it is very comforting to know that i can have a *personal relationship with a higher power (HP/God) of my own choosing.... because HP/ God and I have an understanding. ALSO THAT ...."I am FREE to bring my shortcomings to this spiritual friend.....
In that i found that and i know my spiritual friend HP(within me)HP can and will ... (as I allow ) ... restore me to my healthy definition of a spiritual filling up of Serenity. of PEACE with myself. of HP. a simple definition of personal sanity. peace. a place with me i can sit and be quiet with myself and feel my breathe. this is where step 11 is great... through prayer and meditation... (the meditation.....a simple breathing in and out slowly for 5- to 10 minutes and allowing myself the visuals of places i love) i feel life and know its a blessing that is more important than any chaos that may be going on or in or around me. Peace returns. Anxiety leaves.
(((htc))) you are in my prayers and in my thoughts for strength to find what works for ya.iT works if you work iT. so work IT ~ Your Worth IT! And as always; *take what you like and leave the rest. take care YOU!
thank you for caring and you are right. also I am getting ready at another attempt to quit smoking cigarettes. I called 1-800-quit-now, and they put me with a phone and a web coach. I can call every day 8am-midnight. My dare is supposed to be 4-18, but with my finances, and my health, I may need to move it up, so I will really need some prayer. This will be the hardest and bravest thing I have ever done for me. 3-4 pks a day and I will be dead soon. I love my daughter, and my family, friend, and my life (most of the time) thanx
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Be blessed and have a wonderful day.
Remember God loves you.
PEACE
HTChick, you can be sure my prayers and positive thoughts are with you. Hang on. You will be just fine. Your depression and anxiety are perfectly understandable under the circumstances you have been facing. Keep remembering, this will pass, and keep the faith.
Wish best wishes,
Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
Know you and all my family here are in my prayers always. Just for today, keep your chin up and know you can do anything you put your mind to. We are behind you, and here for you!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
Praying for you, my friend. May you feel the love and caring of each and every one of us here, and especially your HP. The power of prayer is so awesome, I don't know what I'd ever do without my family and their prayers in these rooms, with love, TLC