Thanks to all for the sharing.  My AH came over for dinner tonight. TACOS.  He came right in and hugged me & snuck a kiss in on me. Then he laughed at how he did that.  BLAH.  So I was in the middle of making dinner when my cell phone rang.  He was standing right by it and saw a guy's name come up.  A guy from the karate place the kids and I go to.  Totally innocent on my part as I am not prepared to even think about another relationship at this point.  This guy was calling to apologize for bobbing my son in the face w/a styrphome sword....totally harmless & my son totally deserved it b/c he had bobbed this guy earlier in the evening.  It was simply pay back.

Anyway, my husband knows who this guy is and said that I must already have a new boyfriend.  He said it jokingly.  But the jokes turned into seriousness.  He asked me if we were completely through.  I just rolled my eyes as we have already been through this.  However, he remembers that previous conversation differently than I do.  He seems to have read some hope of reconciliation into that conversation.  Needless to say I told him we were through....that I needed to move on.  He didn't take it too well.  He lost his appetite for the tacos he just prepared and said his goodbyes to the kids and left.

Then he text me several times....saying all kinds of mooshy things....how a man doesn't realize what he has until he loses it....blah blah blah.  I text him back saying I need to work on finding myself.  I have lost myself over the years.  I want to find some peace and serenity.  I told him I cannot predict the future.  If I could, I could have prevented a lot of heartache.  All I can do is work on the now.  - I haven't heard back from him.  He has probably drowned himself in a real stiff drink....just as he said he was going to do earlier.

So that is my update.  It didn't go too terrible.  And I actually have that other guy to thank for it.  A completely innocent phone call.....turned things around.  Or at least for a few days...until my AH torks the whole evening around in his mind and convinces himself that I just need a few days to work on me....not a lifetime, that we will get back together sooner than later.  Then I reckon I will be right back at square one.  Thanks again for all of the ESH.  Y'all are truly a blessing for me.
Sincerely,
QOD