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Okay, I have been an emotional nightmare the last few months...But in the last few days something has happened to me....I am feeling a whole new feeling regarding things in my life.....
I saw my friend tonight through the window.. And he looked miserable, my heart went out to him...I wanted to run out and cuddle him....But to my surprise, I said to myself....Ally, you are powerless kiddo, you have no control over him....And I swear to god, the feelings were gone within five minutes.....This has never happened to me before...
I am right into f2f meetings...Will do four this week...Keeping in contact with my sponsor...Working the programme for me.....Calling people...reading all my literature.... I am chairing my first f2f meeting next week..... WOW!!!!
So I have finally admitted I need to put my life in a new perspective....The old Ally has gone... And in her place is a rose on the verge of growing...(lol))
I have been on the net...and trying to find out things today... I have a great feeling within me to attempt something...Something that will make me feel whole again... .
I am going to try and start up an Alateen meeting in my area....There are none about....And it is something that is urgently called for.. .
My greatest experience in this is life...I also hold a position in my life where I have full clearance, police wise and background check...I'm lucky to have that....
This is something I have a hunger for....I have so much to give to kids in the same position I grew up in.... .
I know it will not be easy to do this...But all of you who know me...Will know I NEVER give in...lol
Please keep me and my mission in your prayers.....I need all the support I can get for this project...
Way to Go Ally! Isn't it strange how we can be hurting and bleeding inside, but we see the person who hurt us so badly, and WE want to comfort THEM! Go figure! Keep up the good work ally. Remember progress, not perfection! Love in Recovery,
(((Ally)))) Alateen~thats so great. i think its soooo powerful of an action.... your sure to feel the love of all blessed to cross paths with you.
i reached out as a youth (younglife.) i believe it to be true that children~ teenagers~young adults (really) in their mind and hearts (only) want and need a bit of love and gentle direction. As an elder...showing them there are steps.. to follow if they choose... standing back to let them learn on their own but also to let em know that your "watchin'" em' grow in case they fall and better yet when they succeed. sweet irony is that the children grew into ( will grow into) US (( )) lol.
so thankful for you (((ally))) and to all others that took their time and gave to children (young adults, to me .) to make this possible. the stability in a loving supporting program. teaching and learning each day the ways of being truthful and honest with our own selves. memories. goood memories. wonderful moments of fun and of tears. memorable times of blessings, of laughter, of love. of miracles. living in the light of loving your own "self," reaching out and loving others as they find their way. wonderful thing for you to think to do. spread feelings of hope and sharing that there truly is a Higher Power (HP) / God in our presense to one another as we learn to live with the effects of or from the effects of our loved ones that have or have had a problem with alcohol or the use of drugs. thank you for always being you. always making me feel so loved. helping me understand how to love me.
i can, i can ........ ohhh i can climb any mountain.. swim every sea. hahah ok im kidding... i THAT is just something i like to do. i can sing a song when i feel good. and sing a song when i need a boost to feel good. to get my mind out of anykind of stinkin thinkin. its easiest for me to singggggg~~~~~. ok not always. AND i wont get into the sound of my voice. i will say that whats most important is that ..i can and i do... listen to me. and in that i pray HP to guide to please be guiding me every single step and each and every breathe and each single minute. Today I believe HP/God is with me and I got alot to do. lalalalalala.
bunches of love to you ((Ally))) keep your chin up and your eyes to the skies and your faith in your HP at your side, always. make it what you want it be and always take some of that love flowing through for your self along the way. (haha..laughin at how you get me ., in the chat room .. too.)
i pray your successful in doing this for You. while your also helping others to learn to live each day and find a way with HP/God. and if its not meant? i believe in you.. to know enough that you will find a way to fill up your YOU . that sweet wonderful spirit....finding is yours in side ... and out. all the good "stuff." (((((ally))))) i believe in you bunches and i also know that there are somany others of the alanon family support ya in whatever your goal.
ODAAT So glad your here . keep coming back keep workin it your worth it