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Okay, I have been an emotional nightmare the last few months...But in the last few days something has happened to me....I am feeling a whole new feeling regarding things in my life..... I saw my friend tonight through the window.. And he looked miserable, my heart went out to him...I wanted to run out and cuddle him....But to my surprise, I said to myself....Ally, you are powerless kiddo, you have no control over him....And I swear to god, the feelings were gone within five minutes.....This has never happened to me before...
I am right into f2f meetings...Will do four this week...Keeping in contact with my sponsor...Working the programme for me.....Calling people...reading all my literature.... I am chairing my first f2f meeting next week..... WOW!!!!
So I have finally admitted I need to put my life in a new perspective....The old Ally has gone... And in her place is a rose on the verge of growing...(lol))
I have been on the net...and trying to find out things today... I have a great feeling within me to attempt something...Something that will make me feel whole again....
I am going to try and start up an Alateen meeting in my area....There are none about....And it is something that is urgently called for...
My greatest experience in this is life...I also hold a position in my life where I have full clearance, police wise and background check...I'm lucky to have that....
This is something I have a hunger for....I have so much to give to kids in the same position I grew up in.....
I know it will not be easy to do this...But all of you who know me...Will know I NEVER give in...lol
Please keep me and my mission in your prayers.....I need all the support I can get for this project...
Hey ((((((((((Miss Europe)))))))))))) what about us "gals"
Take Stock of the Good
Now that the pain is less, understanding can grow.
You may begin seeing change and separation as a natual, inevitable and neccesary part of life.
The relationship brought you a great deal of good (that's why you missed it so terribly when it was no longer there). Mus of it is still with you. Now is the time to take stock of that good:
You are a better person for having loved.
Sifting through the ashes of our relationship,
I find many things to be grateful for.
I can say "thank you" for warm mornings, cold protein drinks, and all the love you have ever offered another.
I can say "thank you" for being there, willing to be shared.
I can say "thank you" for the countless poems you were the inspiration for and the many changes you were catalyst to.
But how, in my grasp of the English language, falteing as it is, can I ever
thank you for Beethoven ?
Source: How to Survive the Loss of a Love
I hope this helps, love ya, Miss USA
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
"Having had a spiritual awaking as a result of these steps we try to carry this message to others and practice these principals in all of our affairs. Step 12.
Aloha Ally!! That spiritual awakening thing sound real to you? Causing you to reach out and want to share it with others? Sounds like you are being directed by a power greater than anyone on this board. "Abandon yourself to God as you understand God..." This has happened has it? If it is happening then you'll know that the desire is to help not enable and "great things will come to pass for you and for others..." (paraphasing from the BB of AA my other program.)
Reach out for help from others regarding Alateen. WSO, your district and area offices and within your own home group. (I'd like to be there when you chair your first meeting. You pick a topic yet?) You are doing the suggestions that lead to long term serenity. Keep going!! If you need support, I've had 9 years continuous as an Alateen sponsor, and that was a miraculous blessing for me. Contact me when you need support.
