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I am going on an interview tomorrow. The A is his normal pre paying the rent funk. I really do believe he wants a Mother. He does not want to be responsible on any level. I am just going to steer clear of him for a few days. He now has a whole long pattern of pre rent paying tantrums and funk. Last night he demanded I buy him socks. He has done nothing, absolutely nothing to pay for or deal with the tremendous damage he did to the truck but oh I should buy him socks. The logic he has is unfathomable but I used to argue with him about it. Now thank goodness with al anon and some research on addictive thinking I don't.
I am really trying to look at my current job search as a blip in the road on moving on with plan b. I have plenty to do on the plan b. I can do it regardless and I intend to. When I think I may not have to deal with the A for ever I can withstand it. When I feel trapped my mood drops significantly. When I'm in action, no matter how small I can feel like I am moving at least...
In the last week I have really been reaching out in some of my other 12 step groups. I have had some resolution of issues and some sense of being heard by people I have not normally been willing to reach out. One woman I have known for years but I have always resisted talking to her much. I once snapped at her for sending me an email because I was trying to cocoon myself in isolation. I am hoping my days of isolation are over. I know I could do nothing else but now I am trying something different.
So please pray for me that I get the job I am going to tomorrow. I know it would help me in my plan b. It wouldn't be the answer tomorrow or even in a week but it would be some of the answer long term and I need that.
i think you have a great outlook on things. it's good that you have a plan and even better that you are ready to carry it out. i don't have as well of a grasp on detachment, and i admire yours! i'll pray for your job opportunity. good luck!
Just stopped & took a few minutes to pray that your HP leads you in the right direction on your job search, that the interview goes well, that you are able to be calm & present all those good qualities that you have during the interview.
Keep taking care of you!!
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
truly hope you get your needs fulfilled. I hope also, that HP will guide you to what you need and want. opportunities are always present - and i found that when HP closes a door, he opens a window. whatever the outcome of your interview, keep up the "can do" attitude - it is certainly what i look for when hiring troops for a job.
brightest blessings cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
SOooooo proud of Youdefinitely going to be in my thoughts all day tomorrow! will be saying a prayer to get the job (if you feel its right) and that (whatever the job,) the job helps you to get closer to what you need in setting up your plan b. what a great thing to do for yourself. a job. im just soooo happy for you!!!
Love You BIGBiGHuG ((((MARE)))) so glad your here!
proud of You
definitely going to be in my thoughts all day tomorrow! will be saying a prayer 
to get the job (if 
you feel its right) and that (whatever the job,) the job helps you to get closer to what you need in setting up your plan b. what a great thing to do for yourself. a job. im just soooo happy for you!!! 
BIGBiGHuG ((((MARE)))) so glad your here! 
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