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I did some research yesterday about the arrest and am just feeling resigned to the idea that this is just the way it's gonna be and it's time for me to move on. I thought I was moving on before but still had that string of hope that we might get back together someday, that he would get better. I am at the point now where it doesn't really even matter anymore. I don't care about him seeing the kids, I don't care about the child support, I just don't want to deal with him anymore. Everything related to him is always work for ME! I'm always putting out more effort and I know that once again none of this will be his fault despite the fact that he was picked up at 4am at a motel for assaulting a female. I'm so tired of the excuses. I really don't want to set myself up to rely on money that is unreliable (support). It doesn't help to have his mom emailing me that she will repay me (she's good about 1/2 the time on that) and I need the support money. I feel exhausted by his problems and just sick of dealing with him and thinking about all the stuff related to him. Ask HP to PLEASE let me just walk away and not look back!!!
PS going to church today for the first time in over 20 years.
Just read both of your posts. Sometimes HP sends us the answers we are looking for without realizing it. This is your time. Time to take care of you, and take back your life. The 6 months will fly by before you know it. Then you can do what you choose. Glad you had a nice time on your date. There are many wonderful people out there, and when it's right you'll know. Don't rush. Take the time for you and find out who you are. Enjoy this journey of discovery.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I am a firm believer in things happen for a reason. I too have been reading your posts. Time to take care of you. Sounds like you are on your way to serenity.
