Hi, it's WendyP, just wanted to share about my recent journey, when I couldn't get online to the MIP program. After trying and trying, and not getting anywhere, and with nothing that I tried, I really thought that I had lost it, and started to think of what it would be like for me to have to work my program, alone. Like I have had to before I found this marvellous program. Mr Fear set in and I started to get really nervous, as I knew that it was going to be much harder to work my program, and keep things in perspective.
But afterwards, when I started to settle down, and looked at what I could do next to help myself keep going. As my program is so important to me and always has been. I started to look at my other options, but if I had lost the MIP program then I asked My HP to help me and show me the way. When I looked at the lessons I had to learn from it all, was a shock to me, because I realised that I had been taking this program for granted.
That I wasn't giving myself the benefit of recovery because I was taking it for granted. Why, because I was scared, and didn't feel that I had anything good to say or share. Like others have. I have held myself back for so long, yes, reading all of your sharings, and not been game to put myself out there to participate as much as I needed to and wanted to. I have realised too, that in that area I have allowed, things, circumstances, people to take away my confidence in myself. That for me, is sad, for I have always tried to do my best and worked hard for my recovery, and always felt strong in myself.
I also realised that I am dependent, on my HP, this Program, and others, which is also a big thing for me. As I have always tried not to be dependent on anyone except my HP. But I am and need to be, as I can't do this, walk through Life by myself, I no longer want to be by myself.
So just for today, I am so grateful for God for showing me the lessons that I needed to see and learn, and hopefully, from know I can start to make a difference for myself.
Thank You all for helping me get where I need to be.
Love WendyP.
Freetime said
Nov 21, 2021
Wendy, thank you for sharing your insights. I am glad you got back onto MIP! I too have found that it works better if I do not try to work it alone.
DM2021 said
Nov 21, 2021
{{WendyP}} Glad you shared your experiences, thoughts and feelings!!
I also am very glad you were able to find the right platform to access MIP again.
I found that cleaning the cache on your browser everyday when you shut down helps tremendously
with situations surrounding getting locked out of frequently visited sites.
It is truly easy to find, on the "Custom and Control" feature "History" and opt to clean it, if you are
using Google/Chrome.
Al-Anon works when we all work it together!
Lyne said
Nov 22, 2021
{{{Wendy}}}. Welcome back! I think of my participation in program as a choice for my benefit and well-being. I could say Im dependent on it but without it, I wasnt doing well at all. I exercise because it helps me stay physically moving and a little strong. Am I dependent on it? Probably. :). But at my age I know without it its not going to be good for me at all. So I guess Im saying its all about my attitude. My dog brings me joy and happiness. Is that dependency? Im going to cut myself some slack. I think if I depend on things that are self-destructive, thats bad. If I depend on things that help me be healthy mentally and physically, well heck, thats smart!
WendyP said
Nov 22, 2021
Thanks for all your responses, and Lyne, I thought on what you said, and it makes sense to me. Looking at it in another way. If I am going to be dependent, then ask myself is it a healthy dependency or unhealthy one.? At the moment I am in the middle of the 3 A'S in the acceptance mode of what I have discovered about myself of late.
I know where the fear of it comes from, it is all inner self issues. That is what I have to ask my HP for help with. I m the type of person, who, if I lose my Serenity, I have to stop and see what the problem is, so I can sort it out with help, from my HP or to work my program. But for now, I am going to cut myself some slack. I tell myself, if, I can't hear the Birds, I know I am in trouble, so I am going to listen to the Birds.
Hi, it's WendyP, just wanted to share about my recent journey, when I couldn't get online to the MIP program. After trying and trying, and not getting anywhere, and with nothing that I tried, I really thought that I had lost it, and started to think of what it would be like for me to have to work my program, alone. Like I have had to before I found this marvellous program. Mr Fear set in and I started to get really nervous, as I knew that it was going to be much harder to work my program, and keep things in perspective.
But afterwards, when I started to settle down, and looked at what I could do next to help myself keep going. As my program is so important to me and always has been. I started to look at my other options, but if I had lost the MIP program then I asked My HP to help me and show me the way. When I looked at the lessons I had to learn from it all, was a shock to me, because I realised that I had been taking this program for granted.
That I wasn't giving myself the benefit of recovery because I was taking it for granted. Why, because I was scared, and didn't feel that I had anything good to say or share. Like others have. I have held myself back for so long, yes, reading all of your sharings, and not been game to put myself out there to participate as much as I needed to and wanted to. I have realised too, that in that area I have allowed, things, circumstances, people to take away my confidence in myself. That for me, is sad, for I have always tried to do my best and worked hard for my recovery, and always felt strong in myself.
I also realised that I am dependent, on my HP, this Program, and others, which is also a big thing for me. As I have always tried not to be dependent on anyone except my HP. But I am and need to be, as I can't do this, walk through Life by myself, I no longer want to be by myself.
So just for today, I am so grateful for God for showing me the lessons that I needed to see and learn, and hopefully, from know I can start to make a difference for myself.
Thank You all for helping me get where I need to be.
Love WendyP.
{{WendyP}} Glad you shared your experiences, thoughts and feelings!!
I also am very glad you were able to find the right platform to access MIP again.
I found that cleaning the cache on your browser everyday when you shut down helps tremendously
with situations surrounding getting locked out of frequently visited sites.
It is truly easy to find, on the "Custom and Control" feature "History" and opt to clean it, if you are
using Google/Chrome.
Al-Anon works when we all work it together!
Thanks for all your responses, and Lyne, I thought on what you said, and it makes sense to me. Looking at it in another way. If I am going to be dependent, then ask myself is it a healthy dependency or unhealthy one.? At the moment I am in the middle of the 3 A'S in the acceptance mode of what I have discovered about myself of late.
I know where the fear of it comes from, it is all inner self issues. That is what I have to ask my HP for help with. I m the type of person, who, if I lose my Serenity, I have to stop and see what the problem is, so I can sort it out with help, from my HP or to work my program. But for now, I am going to cut myself some slack. I tell myself, if, I can't hear the Birds, I know I am in trouble, so I am going to listen to the Birds.
Love WendyP.