I had a dream a few night's ago that really startled me. It wasn't a drunk dream for me but a dream where my AH was drunk & drinking. Mind you I have never really seen him drunk. He has been sober for almost 15 years. I have never dreamt of him actually being drunk either. I don't know why I did. It is very odd & disturbing to me needless to say.
So, what do you all think? I have studied psychology & have never really tried to interpret dreams. I know that the disease is still in my life & that I have the program. It frightens me to say the least even though it could happen. I guess the truth is I don't really worry that he might drink. I am more worried about my sanity through all of this. I will try not to psycho-analyze the situation. I could really make this bigger than it is & that it is not entirely about me. You know what I mean? I am OK though since it was a few nights ago. I have been able to process this much better after the fact. So, I will take any feedback you all can give.
Now it has been a few more nights as I complete this post. I am not so disturbed by this as I was when I wrote the original post. I really didn't think that the post was still here actually. So, I am somewhat coming from a different place.
I hope that you all may be able to find something meaningful about this. I am grateful that I am to have this behind me but I still feel the need to say how it makes me feel. I hope I am not being redundant. I am just glad you are all there out there especially those who follow me.
Again, I am not asking for an interpretation of the dream. I just want your experience strength & HOPE in this not so unusual topic.
In service,
Kathleen
a4l said
Aug 2, 2021
Hi Kathleen, for me dreams like this are the minds way of releasing what scares us so that it is expressed and out. I know they can be vivid but I have found trusting in the process of my bodies design has served me well. Take care and nice to see you!
JerryF said
Aug 2, 2021
Kath my process has evolved to where I can speak to my dream state and get it to listen to how I want it to behave. I can say "stop it" or change it to other subjects and using clean intent it does. I manipulate my PTSD that way and get more focus and sleep. Have the dreams you want to have. ((((hugs))))
mamalioness said
Aug 3, 2021
Hi! I agree with a 41 in that dreams are a way of releasing fears, also releasing emotions, I noticed some of my dreams are telling me stuff I need to work on. I try to remember my dreams and go over them when I get up but usually it is something I am preoccupied with or am afraid of or its an issue thats not resolved. Sending you peace
Hoot Nanny said
Aug 3, 2021
Actually I was just wondering if anyone has had this dream or one similar. That I am not the only one. I have lots of awful dreams before. Mostly just about me. So this one was very surprising to me. Just saying...
I had a dream a few night's ago that really startled me. It wasn't a drunk dream for me but a dream where my AH was drunk & drinking. Mind you I have never really seen him drunk. He has been sober for almost 15 years. I have never dreamt of him actually being drunk either. I don't know why I did. It is very odd & disturbing to me needless to say.
So, what do you all think? I have studied psychology & have never really tried to interpret dreams. I know that the disease is still in my life & that I have the program. It frightens me to say the least even though it could happen. I guess the truth is I don't really worry that he might drink. I am more worried about my sanity through all of this. I will try not to psycho-analyze the situation. I could really make this bigger than it is & that it is not entirely about me. You know what I mean? I am OK though since it was a few nights ago. I have been able to process this much better after the fact. So, I will take any feedback you all can give.
Now it has been a few more nights as I complete this post. I am not so disturbed by this as I was when I wrote the original post. I really didn't think that the post was still here actually. So, I am somewhat coming from a different place.
I hope that you all may be able to find something meaningful about this. I am grateful that I am to have this behind me but I still feel the need to say how it makes me feel. I hope I am not being redundant. I am just glad you are all there out there especially those who follow me.
Again, I am not asking for an interpretation of the dream. I just want your experience strength & HOPE in this not so unusual topic.
In service,
Kathleen
Kath my process has evolved to where I can speak to my dream state and get it to listen to how I want it to behave. I can say "stop it" or change it to other subjects and using clean intent it does. I manipulate my PTSD that way and get more focus and sleep. Have the dreams you want to have. ((((hugs))))