The idea of straws and winnowing appeals to me. An image i used a lot in my healing. Gleaning too- from The Book of Ruth. But also that grim saying:- "The straw that broke the camel's back."
I was broken and lost for much of my life. So lost there was no way out. I did need a miracle- because I was so stuck. ...
This week I set out to join our community board/ aka town council. A place of 5,500 people.
I went to a big hearing 10 days ago- where lots of the community showed up and made submissions.
In our valley our valley floor was flooded by a huge dam in 1993.
The construction workers bought AA into our valley. And their wives [at the time] came along to Alanon.
Our small farm and orchard was affected- but not flooded completely. My favourite place in the USA is Taylor's creek in North Georgia- at the headwaters of the Little Tennessee River- because it is so much like Lowburn Ferry, here in NZ, where I grew up.
I am aware, so much, how the movie Deliverance depicted the communities around there! ...
Our community was regarded as rusty and backward really. And far too many people made decisions FOR us, and not BY us.
I could ramble on...
...I know I have impulse control issues.
Over my lifetime I might have had a fair few of the Akronyms that are listed by the Psychiatric Association.
But I am still me here... ...
...thanks to much for listening.
Knowing that I am being listened to brings tears to my eyes! ... . . . h e a l i n g . . .
Debb said
May 27, 2021
Always lovely to read your posts David!
I think that it is wonderful that you are participating in local community issues!!
mamalioness said
May 27, 2021
Dear David: I can relate to being broken and the straw that keeps breaking my back on and off is financial crisis ever since the great recession hit in 2008 and I struggled before that on and off as well and it seems like its the same nemesis: financial stability just seems to elude me. So I have decided to just not resist it anymore and to just go with the flow and easy does it and keeping things simple as Debb said in her post. I have been knocking on doors trying to remedy this crisis coming up and I cannot get any doors to budge so I am going to have to make myself get out of the way so if there is any hope the universe can help me I need to be out of the way. That is tough for me with my issues with control
The straw that will break my back is coming closer and closer as I get older and it gets tougher and tougher to rebound. I just want stability and security enough to know Im going to be OK. Thanks for your share and Im glad the flood did not wash you away. And its good youre doing community stuff like that
I was broken and lost for much of my life. So lost there was no way out. I did need a miracle- because I was so stuck.
...
This week I set out to join our community board/ aka town council. A place of 5,500 people.
I went to a big hearing 10 days ago- where lots of the community showed up and made submissions.
In our valley our valley floor was flooded by a huge dam in 1993.
The construction workers bought AA into our valley. And their wives [at the time] came along to Alanon.
Our small farm and orchard was affected- but not flooded completely. My favourite place in the USA is Taylor's creek in North Georgia- at the headwaters of the Little Tennessee River- because it is so much like Lowburn Ferry, here in NZ, where I grew up.
I am aware, so much, how the movie Deliverance depicted the communities around there!
...
Our community was regarded as rusty and backward really. And far too many people made decisions FOR us, and not BY us.
I could ramble on...
...I know I have impulse control issues.
Over my lifetime I might have had a fair few of the Akronyms that are listed by the Psychiatric Association.
But I am still me here...
...
...thanks to much for listening.
Knowing that I am being listened to brings tears to my eyes!
... . . . h e a l i n g . . .
I think that it is wonderful that you are participating in local community issues!!
The straw that will break my back is coming closer and closer as I get older and it gets tougher and tougher to rebound. I just want stability and security enough to know Im going to be OK. Thanks for your share and Im glad the flood did not wash you away. And its good youre doing community stuff like that