...one of the privileges of old age. I often struggled with sleep and resting- lots.

When I was a kid I sometimes wanted and needed to weep. Very much so. But

I put so much energy and discipline into holding tears back. One phrase that sits

in the beck of my mind is this one:- "I'll give you something to cry about!" Not

sure if this ploy was used on me- I can't actually remember.

What has tears got to do with sleeping? Actually I am not completely sure.

Emotion is hard to pin down- and maybe not a good thing to try and pin down?

I keep it simple- very simple- and leave it up to my higher power to reveal- as

I actively ask questions- actually doing the work. But waiting for the answers

in higher power's time.

When I used to have a panic attack I would get warnings. I would lose my keys,

or my cash card. Would go into a tizzy- which would make it far worse!

I used to try and control my sleeping. There did not seem to be a pattern. But,

after a nap I would find things, and find things out. It was space where I could

tidy stuff- and get things in the right place.

Yesterday, at the assembly I bought two plants. Grown with loving care by one

of our members. And we had a chat at the time of handover- which was magical.

These are for my office, or den. 

Thanks again for the opportunity to share. In this mode I borrow a phrase from

the AA BB, "Half measures avail us nothing!"

 ... Sunday afternoon here- just hanging out with two grand-kids.  ...

David 

I did plenty of crying when I was a child. No one cared 

I do think sleep is very crucial.  I make a point of sleeping 

I also make a point of resting 

I also try to make a point of budgeting 

I can lose things as well. Generally they show up 

I am about to do s big declutter. I hope that will help because I need it 

Glad you had some interesting visits

Look forward to your next share 

Maresie 

When I became a sponsor and therapist working within recovery rooms I came to understand the validity of PTSD and how deeply it was implanted in my mind.  I came to understand how often and well it emerged during periods of time when there wasn't other stress disorders to interfere in the repeated process.  I use medical support at times to help me get "into" sleep and keep me there without interference.  Of course none of the meds are addictive nor do they carry a promise of over drugging.  I have program practice which can and will interfere with repetition such as meditation continuing prayer. 

Napping can and will work yet what works better is sleep...continuous unconscious condition that rests me mind, body, spirit and emotions just as alcohol use to.  PTSD is life long.  I've had it since my youth so I recognize the dialogues and intensity well.   Taking a NANA nap is pure gold because they happen randomly and I don't have to struggle to get in and stay in. 

I like the term NANA nap because it is gentle to my mind and conjures up having an elder accompany the pillow.  Thanks David