When I  look at my user name, it reminds me that I was 47 when i came to this forum.  I am now 53.  6 years have flown by in the blink of an eye literally.

Those years will pass one way or the other. 

I get to decide how I will spend that time. I wasted a few years of my life fighting against the disease.  Time that I will never ever get back. 

I will remain forever grateful that I made the choice to surrender my will and embrace a higher power. If I had not, the six years would have gone by anyways but my life would be much different. 

I can recall with great clarity the extreme misery and pain that i felt upon my arrival here. I was not living my own life as I was consumed with saving another. We all know how that turns out. 

I became willing to do the work required, accepted that this is a life long process and found the courage to trust and make some hard decisions. Things seem to have their own way of working out exactly as they should without me exerting any force. When I drop my end of the rope, change occurs in any circumstance i find myself in. 

Now I  choose peace, I choose me. 

Serenity. Thank you so much for your share. Fight flight was ny.way of life because of my origins. Then when I was dealing  with the qualifier until I surrendered the reactivity was intense.  Fight flight was ever present 

I do not consider any relationship time lost. Every relationship brought me something 

I look forward to growing and evolving mo.mattrr shat it takes.  

I will go to.any lengths for my recovery