I still need keep the focus on myself... ...and i seem to manage to do this.
I wondered if i had loyalty issues, with gin got another group. Seems not.
I wept at my meeting last night. Tears of relief really. I could have killed myself anytime
over the last 50 years. But now I don't feel this way. I have genuine hope. Dream was
to keep going until the cavalry arrive. It has arrived in the form of a therapist who works
with breathing issues and with C-PTSD. She is really at the cutting edge and still learning
herself. I is exciting in some ways.
But today i feel like I have a life. Going to a rowing regatta over the weekend. Grandkids are competing.
We are taking a younger grand-daughter and her friend. Staying over in a caravan.
Sometimes i feel like I have become a fully paid up member of the middle class! ...
I do weep sometimes with MIP Alanon here. Unseen, of course. Mostly tears of joy sometimes,
sometimes tears of empathy and recognition.
I think are all born survivors. Sometimes/most times the most sensitive and intelligent members of our families.
Maybe going painting next week over at the coast. I have a new lamb to tend to.
I hate to leave home- get very stressed- but I am addressing this one...
...always but always I have had to meet challenges head on. Face on, really...
but i do need to stop hitting myself over the head with a brick wall... !!! ...
cheers- have a nice day... ...
DavidG said
Jan 28, 2021
To get to the meeting I have to go right up the gorge, past Lake Hayes and along the Ladies Mile to get there. Made it early and opened up. The newcomer saw my truck parked outside the rooms... ...and maybe that decided her to come along 20 mins later.
Hmmm I do tend to ramble a bit. Still.
There are still some attributes to this... rambling, journalling. A semi-public form of journalling i call "squirrelling".
I was asked to chair the meeting last night. In my home group the person chairing he meeting was different every week. This neighbouring group does things a bit differently. But a healthy group will adapt and change.
Taking on board what works best.
My plan this year was to do Tradition 5.
But ah is looking too at tradition 1 and 2... what makes group culture; a group soul, a group conscience... ... ... ...
Debb said
Jan 28, 2021
David,
I take heart that we all feel the same as you, I know I do. This board and it's members are a very
important part of my day and I think the world of everyone here.
I believe rambling is good for the soul, helps others to get to know a person.
Sounds like you have a lovely family and participating in grand kids activities is very bonding for
me. Love to go see my grand-daughter participate in her karate classes and music recitals.
I do not have farm animals, that sounds so cool that you have a new born lamb, hope mother
and baby are doing well.
PosiesandPuppies said
Jan 29, 2021
Love the "ramblings." Your first post did paint a wonderful picture of a well-tended life! The outing/camping sounds great! Hope your grand kids perform well!
I am so glad that you have found a really good therapist! Sounds like she is really helping!
Hi y'all...
I don't have to keep Alanon going, worldwide.
I still need keep the focus on myself... ...and i seem to manage to do this.
I wondered if i had loyalty issues, with gin got another group. Seems not.
I wept at my meeting last night. Tears of relief really. I could have killed myself anytime
over the last 50 years. But now I don't feel this way. I have genuine hope. Dream was
to keep going until the cavalry arrive. It has arrived in the form of a therapist who works
with breathing issues and with C-PTSD. She is really at the cutting edge and still learning
herself. I is exciting in some ways.
But today i feel like I have a life. Going to a rowing regatta over the weekend. Grandkids are competing.
We are taking a younger grand-daughter and her friend. Staying over in a caravan.
Sometimes i feel like I have become a fully paid up member of the middle class!
...
I do weep sometimes with MIP Alanon here. Unseen, of course. Mostly tears of joy sometimes,
sometimes tears of empathy and recognition.
I think are all born survivors. Sometimes/most times the most sensitive and intelligent members of our families.
Maybe going painting next week over at the coast. I have a new lamb to tend to.
I hate to leave home- get very stressed- but I am addressing this one...
...always but always I have had to meet challenges head on. Face on, really...
but i do need to stop hitting myself over the head with a brick wall... !!!
...
cheers- have a nice day...
...
Hmmm I do tend to ramble a bit. Still.
There are still some attributes to this... rambling, journalling. A semi-public form of journalling i call "squirrelling".
I was asked to chair the meeting last night. In my home group the person chairing he meeting was different every week. This neighbouring group does things a bit differently. But a healthy group will adapt and change.
Taking on board what works best.
My plan this year was to do Tradition 5.
But ah is looking too at tradition 1 and 2... what makes group culture; a group soul, a group conscience...
... 
... 
...
I take heart that we all feel the same as you, I know I do. This board and it's members are a very
important part of my day and I think the world of everyone here.
I believe rambling is good for the soul, helps others to get to know a person.
Sounds like you have a lovely family and participating in grand kids activities is very bonding for
me. Love to go see my grand-daughter participate in her karate classes and music recitals.
I do not have farm animals, that sounds so cool that you have a new born lamb, hope mother
and baby are doing well.
I am so glad that you have found a really good therapist! Sounds like she is really helping!