I've been so sick with my back...spasm after spasm so I decided, after I talked with my doctor to do my own research, now that I know its not my spine, but nerve damage, myofascial issues caused by the C_PTSD
I am recovering from the latest and had to change my exercise protocol to include meditation, breathing, stretching and rehab type exercises to build up the muscles that are susesptical to this..stretching, etc...also I have Tramadol in times of need, but I am determined to build me up, relax me down, stretch me out and "catch and release" any and all feelings...being aware of me, my body as well as my mind/feelings, etc.
today was rehab therapy day one and I did NOT irritate my injury...I think, also, as soon as I start feeling better, I "over do it" and set me back...THIS time I am going to be patient, no pool, no sports, just rehab therapy until I am recovered, THEN go for a swim......
I hope you guys are all ok...staying away from Covid....one of my 2 remaining clients, his sister who is off. mgr, got Covid, I hadn't been there and they totally cleaned up the place, but yea, she was on a ventilator, now shes home, but won't be able to work till after 1st of year....SCARY!!!!
I've been practicing slowing down, paying attention, being mindful all part of my help me to feel better program...deep breathing and going deep inside in me to connect with my HP within...
today i watched a docu about rescue horses and started to cry..i miss having my horses, i am sad i am laid up, in recovery, can't even go to gym till this is completely recovered.....VERY hard to fight off depression, being so sick with this....lower back has been OK, but the upper back (this started in August) is horrid...the pain shoots down my right arm when it is real bad...icing it down relieves it...
so thats my news....I missed you guys, but it hurts to type so have to limit it for a while....NO overdoing things till I am stretched out, built up and healed....HUGS to all
DavidG said
Nov 24, 2020
a lot of my approaches to C-PTSD, Rose, are amateur, really.
Mainly because the technology hasn't reached NZ yet. And would be expensive.
But i do have a good physiotherapist- who is up to speed... I have to do a lot of the work myself. Day by day.
Stored trauma in my neck- and between my shoulders and my head.
I have usually had a lot of trouble finishing things- and am now pushing ahead- just pushing into the pain- very gently.
The pain in my neck feels very much like having the cramps. And with exercise it is getting better, but very slowly.
Iamhere said
Nov 24, 2020
Sorry Rose for all that's happening with your back. Sending healing prayers and thoughts your way!
PosiesandPuppies said
Nov 24, 2020
Rose, I must say, I did do some "sleuthing" on the CODA site to see if you were still around!! Missed you!
However, what you are experiencing is real. Thankfully, more and more health professionals are recognizing this! So I am applauding you for putting your health first, and doing all the things available to you to feel better! I am very happy that this COVID virus has not found you!! Keep taking good care of your immune system, and use all personal precautions.
I just keep trying to tell myself that this national chaos we find ourselves in, is only temporary. I am sending as much healing vibes as I can muster!
&
mamalioness said
Nov 24, 2020
Thanks everyone, yea, David this is SLOW going....the spasms havn't bothered the lower back, now its the upper, romboid muscle and its AWFUL it pinches a nerve in my r. hand so it is excrutiating....exercise....stretching....breathing....FEELING my feelings....I sorta "catch and release" the feelings and medicare doesn't pay much for physio therapy and with unemployment running out and no work (too crippled up of late to work) but anyway, I just had to do my own research...i got a foam roller thingy to roll on plus a bag of tennis balls to do the pressure and release on the knots....I just hope I am catching this before permanent damage/scarring is done...I am afraid of my own body...afraid of the next spasm that knocks me down for days only THIS time I am going to WAIT before I go back to my swimming laps and heavy exercise/pressure on my body.....maybe 20 minutes of entire body strengthening exercises and stretches...full body workout to build me up, stretch me out and hopefully calm me down....I had a good cry tonight, just grieving my life
Hey IAH...thanks for the kind thoughts....I hope your parents are OK and you too....
Posies, as depressed as I have been over my body turning on me like this, in my hour of the "pit" I really didn't care if I got covid and it did me in....I honestly don't know what purpose or meaning my life has of late....recovering and existing....can't even go to gym...afraid of jumping the gun and aggravating this romboid muscle so I am looking at 2-4 weeks home exercising, I'll just see how i feel week to week I want to be built up enough that I can take the CPTSD strains and inability to really relax w/out spasming up....
David, how do you push into the pain??? that is very interesting....is it deep tissue pressure message and release....I do two types....massaging the knots and then taking a tennis ball, in a sock so I can hold it over the bad muscle and I find the trigger point and press into it and then release...press and release.....and you are right...it is very slow going.....ice and heat...both seem to help some, but like youi said....slow going.....I am so tired of this....I had a good cry tonight, just releasing my grief and frustration....
thanks you all for stopping in, Happy thanksgiving to everyone....be safe
DavidG said
Nov 24, 2020
look- Rosie- if we went to a specialist to do this work- it would takes years [as it does] and $10,000's of dosh.
And look- the people who can work with C-PTSD and few and far between.
First aid 101 is to simply choose nose breathing over mouth breathing.
Impossible to do while we are asleep!
I get pins and needles- tingling in my little fingers. [Used to be much worse.]
Beyond this- opinions but NOT advice.
it does seem to take forever and ever. It does seem to be impossible.
Not only shades of PTSD, but also Auto-Immune-Disease.
Which i know now I have has as a kid. Migraine and Psoriasis. I think with stomach stuff, initial bowel, and reflux all thrown in.
Th last two I don't get any more- or much more at all.
Having an eating disorder seems to go along with this.
The list is longer than this. It is a catalogue of woe.
And also I used to wear out my shoe leather train backwards and forwards to the dungy. [Bathroom]
That was horrible as well.
If only the perpetrators knew what they were setting family up for! Horror and terror.
Sharing our insiders view, with each other is helpful, and it does become healing.
It helps to break down the deep sense of isolation and despair that cuts us off from others, and the world.
((((((((((((((((((( Rose ))))))))))))))))))
Hope some part of Thanksgiving brings you a moment of joy, my friend. .
...
Temple said
Nov 25, 2020
Rosie--
Bless your little heart.
I am so sorry you are hurting and so thankful you were in a better place feelings-wise when it began. You really do seem to have a handle on so much.
Wise to take it easy. You've always been very disciplined. It serves you well.
Well, ask the pups--they'd tell you keeping them healthy and happy is a very big purpose, in their considered opinions, I'm sure. And others may come to mind as you get better.
No matter what, you have always taken very good care of that little powerhouse of a body. And this serves you well, too.
All good thoughts and prayers that you start feeling a real difference very soon. I hope your church has online services. Rest yourself, don't use the energy to respond to me.
Blessings and hugs,
Temple
mamalioness said
Nov 25, 2020
WOW!! David, I so relate to what you are saying about the ---If only the perpetrators knew what they were setting family up for! Horror and terror." yea, and its a life time of trying to forgive ME for being so little , powerless/ HELPLESS to do anything but try and cope....try and stay alive, well, I am gonna fight for ME..to help ME...so I am researching and a LOT of it is , like you said...an inside job....all my life I was an athlete and I think that may be my ace during this rehabilitation from these spasms.....
Hey ((((((Temple))))))) so good to hear from you...yea, I can be disciplined in some ways, but when I start to feeling better, I jump the gun and want to play tennis, basketball and swim and I mess me up again....THIS time, its WAIT till I am completely recovered with all this strengthening, stretching, meditatating, I should be built up, stretched out and calmed down enough to KNOW when i am really recovered and I can resume my sports....but I have to keep telling me WAIT...it will happen (recovery) but you gotta WAIT and be patient.....hard when you want to get up and have some fun but discipline on this too.....David knows whats goin on with me because he has the CPTSD too and its a buggar, it attacks the body in addition to the mind..."stored pain" thats what this is....so I am back to journalling and like David says "nose breathing" BIG thing that is...its weird how the "little" things can be so key in recovering....letting go the grief, rage, indignation, sorrow , of it all, that will be my greatest of life challenges..........Thanks so much for stopping by....I have not done any videos of the doggies....I will get some sent to you real soon......the girls wanna play but they seem to understand that not only do I need MY patience with me, but THEIRS too....the little pit bull is even trying to be more quiet, LOL and the lab/pit bull follows me everywhere wanting to hug me...so does the pit bull....yea, they know something hasn't been right with me....this am, I felt up to throwing a tennis ball for them, so they are not asleep on their big beach towel, close to me......
hey Everyone!!! Missed you guys
I've been so sick with my back...spasm after spasm so I decided, after I talked with my doctor to do my own research, now that I know its not my spine, but nerve damage, myofascial issues caused by the C_PTSD
I am recovering from the latest and had to change my exercise protocol to include meditation, breathing, stretching and rehab type exercises to build up the muscles that are susesptical to this..stretching, etc...also I have Tramadol in times of need, but I am determined to build me up, relax me down, stretch me out and "catch and release" any and all feelings...being aware of me, my body as well as my mind/feelings, etc.
today was rehab therapy day one and I did NOT irritate my injury...I think, also, as soon as I start feeling better, I "over do it" and set me back...THIS time I am going to be patient, no pool, no sports, just rehab therapy until I am recovered, THEN go for a swim......
I hope you guys are all ok...staying away from Covid....one of my 2 remaining clients, his sister who is off. mgr, got Covid, I hadn't been there and they totally cleaned up the place, but yea, she was on a ventilator, now shes home, but won't be able to work till after 1st of year....SCARY!!!!
I've been practicing slowing down, paying attention, being mindful all part of my help me to feel better program...deep breathing and going deep inside in me to connect with my HP within...
today i watched a docu about rescue horses and started to cry..i miss having my horses, i am sad i am laid up, in recovery, can't even go to gym till this is completely recovered.....VERY hard to fight off depression, being so sick with this....lower back has been OK, but the upper back (this started in August) is horrid...the pain shoots down my right arm when it is real bad...icing it down relieves it...
so thats my news....I missed you guys, but it hurts to type so have to limit it for a while....NO overdoing things till I am stretched out, built up and healed....HUGS to all
Mainly because the technology hasn't reached NZ yet. And would be expensive.
But i do have a good physiotherapist- who is up to speed... I have to do a lot of the work myself. Day by day.
Stored trauma in my neck- and between my shoulders and my head.
I have usually had a lot of trouble finishing things- and am now pushing ahead- just pushing into the pain- very gently.
The pain in my neck feels very much like having the cramps. And with exercise it is getting better, but very slowly.
However, what you are experiencing is real. Thankfully, more and more health professionals are recognizing this! So I am applauding you for putting your health first, and doing all the things available to you to feel better! I am very happy that this COVID virus has not found you!! Keep taking good care of your immune system, and use all personal precautions.
I just keep trying to tell myself that this national chaos we find ourselves in, is only temporary. I am sending as much healing vibes as I can muster!
Hey IAH...thanks for the kind thoughts....I hope your parents are OK and you too....
Posies, as depressed as I have been over my body turning on me like this, in my hour of the "pit" I really didn't care if I got covid and it did me in....I honestly don't know what purpose or meaning my life has of late....recovering and existing....can't even go to gym...afraid of jumping the gun and aggravating this romboid muscle so I am looking at 2-4 weeks home exercising, I'll just see how i feel week to week I want to be built up enough that I can take the CPTSD strains and inability to really relax w/out spasming up....
David, how do you push into the pain??? that is very interesting....is it deep tissue pressure message and release....I do two types....massaging the knots and then taking a tennis ball, in a sock so I can hold it over the bad muscle and I find the trigger point and press into it and then release...press and release.....and you are right...it is very slow going.....ice and heat...both seem to help some, but like youi said....slow going.....I am so tired of this....I had a good cry tonight, just releasing my grief and frustration....
thanks you all for stopping in, Happy thanksgiving to everyone....be safe
And look- the people who can work with C-PTSD and few and far between.
First aid 101 is to simply choose nose breathing over mouth breathing.
Impossible to do while we are asleep!
I get pins and needles- tingling in my little fingers. [Used to be much worse.]
Beyond this- opinions but NOT advice.
it does seem to take forever and ever. It does seem to be impossible.
Not only shades of PTSD, but also Auto-Immune-Disease.
Which i know now I have has as a kid. Migraine and Psoriasis. I think with stomach stuff, initial bowel, and reflux all thrown in.
Th last two I don't get any more- or much more at all.
Having an eating disorder seems to go along with this.
The list is longer than this. It is a catalogue of woe.
And also I used to wear out my shoe leather train backwards and forwards to the dungy. [Bathroom]
That was horrible as well.
If only the perpetrators knew what they were setting family up for! Horror and terror.
Sharing our insiders view, with each other is helpful, and it does become healing.
It helps to break down the deep sense of isolation and despair that cuts us off from others, and the world.
((((((((((((((((((( Rose ))))))))))))))))))
Hope some part of Thanksgiving brings you a moment of joy, my friend.
.
...
Bless your little heart.
I am so sorry you are hurting and so thankful you were in a better place feelings-wise when it began. You really do seem to have a handle on so much.
Wise to take it easy. You've always been very disciplined. It serves you well.
Well, ask the pups--they'd tell you keeping them healthy and happy is a very big purpose, in their considered opinions, I'm sure. And others may come to mind as you get better.
No matter what, you have always taken very good care of that little powerhouse of a body. And this serves you well, too.
All good thoughts and prayers that you start feeling a real difference very soon. I hope your church has online services. Rest yourself, don't use the energy to respond to me.
Blessings and hugs,
Temple
Hey ((((((Temple))))))) so good to hear from you...yea, I can be disciplined in some ways, but when I start to feeling better, I jump the gun and want to play tennis, basketball and swim and I mess me up again....THIS time, its WAIT till I am completely recovered with all this strengthening, stretching, meditatating, I should be built up, stretched out and calmed down enough to KNOW when i am really recovered and I can resume my sports....but I have to keep telling me WAIT...it will happen (recovery) but you gotta WAIT and be patient.....hard when you want to get up and have some fun but discipline on this too.....David knows whats goin on with me because he has the CPTSD too and its a buggar, it attacks the body in addition to the mind..."stored pain" thats what this is....so I am back to journalling and like David says "nose breathing" BIG thing that is...its weird how the "little" things can be so key in recovering....letting go the grief, rage, indignation, sorrow , of it all, that will be my greatest of life challenges..........Thanks so much for stopping by....I have not done any videos of the doggies....I will get some sent to you real soon......the girls wanna play but they seem to understand that not only do I need MY patience with me, but THEIRS too....the little pit bull is even trying to be more quiet, LOL and the lab/pit bull follows me everywhere wanting to hug me...so does the pit bull....yea, they know something hasn't been right with me....this am, I felt up to throwing a tennis ball for them, so they are not asleep on their big beach towel, close to me......