... a lot of things about me were damaged and wounded. In my growing years- sometimes- my reality was too much to bear.
I treasure and celebrate little changes, moment on moment, day by day, dia por dia, month by month and year by year.
I attend a meeting on Wednesdays in Kent- Great Britain. It is a small fledgling group, which I like. I really do like the "first day in school" feel, sometimes...
...and this is my home group- in actuality.
The things about the wounds, and reality, is that I have to imagine y'all here. We all know each other through words. Occasionally I find a little more about one person- and that enlarges the image, a little.
The "now you see me, and now you don't" appeals a lot!
My last two meetings in the USA were in Rapid City SD. They were very different. One along at the School of Mines, and 't'other in a dedicated Alanon room at an AA clubhouse.
I have been to these clubhouses in Florida, Georgia, Texas NYC and, of course SD.
This is how I picture the MIP groups working together. Though of course Alanon is by far the biggest group here.
In both the Rapid City groups I could be myself. I did not have to conform to some expectation of the people there.
i was a real person, and a field worker, mostly. Before that I worked on a railway gang.
I did not expect to ever get overseas, but by the grace of our HP, this became possible.
We have family in Florida and South Dakota. A brother in Texas.
What I am on about is getting to a meeting. If three or people read this i will be happy.
This morning I was dressed up and attending our Remembrance day observance.
After wards I had some ginger beer with some old veterans.
I felt relaxed and I laughed and chatted with the blokes.
This is not the me that used to be!
Almost a completely different person... ...
I did not have to travel to a meeting. I am just sitting here.
Some place I would have to attend three or four meetings, just to have a share like this!
Thanks... ...
DavidG said
Nov 10, 2020
Step 12...
...some things I have done over the last 5 or 6 weeks, have been less than exemplary.
In my life I was sometimes too scared to take risks, and therefore did not learn as much as I needed.
Some of my contact with people is through my trusty laptop; but I do try to keep my feet on the ground.
Contact now over a recovery daughter in Illinois bought tears to my eyes- as she recalled her sister in service
overseas.
An old old friend with whom we have been to hell and back- ditto... she lives 1800km away... so grateful for my
emotions... for my programme, and for recovery friends- who are just so gritty and real! ...
Maresie888 said
Nov 11, 2020
I.went to high school in Kent!!
I have not been able to.keep up.as much on the radio 4 and BBC as I normally do.
Glad you are keeping active and finding solace in others
That is some of what I.am aiming for in adulthood
I am aiming to be mature and solid
I think I have finally come to be in.acceotance of the pandemuc. I guess it only took me 8 months
Going to a place where Incan get reafy for the next shut down
Inam so glad you keep is uodares daily of what you are doing
Thank you!!
Maresie
a4l said
Nov 12, 2020
I listen as I read and feel you've had cool experiences. Like being beamed around the globe in a way both physically and now with technology virtually too. Thats one up side for the 12 step family of covid. Easy access to a much broader range of meetings.
Lyne said
Nov 12, 2020
I think what gives me an A+ alanon experience is using all the resources available. I miss my home group, F2F in person meeting, but we are on zoom and I still get to see some of the people with whom I have shared ESH with for over 7 years. I joined this board prior to my F2F and obtained Betty as my sponsor. I think it's the sum total of practicing program in all the ways possible that empower me to cope with my A and grow as a person. Like you David, I come from a background of pain, shame, abuse, etc. I now feel like a much improved version of myself, and thank all the people here who respond to me. :)
SunnyFrogs said
Nov 12, 2020
I always look forward to reading your shares here DavidG. The way you write puts all the images of what you say in my mind and I enjoy that.
I treasure and celebrate little changes, moment on moment, day by day, dia por dia, month by month and year by year.
I attend a meeting on Wednesdays in Kent- Great Britain. It is a small fledgling group, which I like. I really do like the "first day in school" feel, sometimes...
...and this is my home group- in actuality.
The things about the wounds, and reality, is that I have to imagine y'all here. We all know each other through words. Occasionally I find a little more about one person- and that enlarges the image, a little.
The "now you see me, and now you don't" appeals a lot!
My last two meetings in the USA were in Rapid City SD. They were very different. One along at the School of Mines, and 't'other in a dedicated Alanon room at an AA clubhouse.
I have been to these clubhouses in Florida, Georgia, Texas NYC and, of course SD.
This is how I picture the MIP groups working together. Though of course Alanon is by far the biggest group here.
In both the Rapid City groups I could be myself. I did not have to conform to some expectation of the people there.
i was a real person, and a field worker, mostly. Before that I worked on a railway gang.
I did not expect to ever get overseas, but by the grace of our HP, this became possible.
We have family in Florida and South Dakota. A brother in Texas.
What I am on about is getting to a meeting. If three or people read this i will be happy.
This morning I was dressed up and attending our Remembrance day observance.
After wards I had some ginger beer with some old veterans.
I felt relaxed and I laughed and chatted with the blokes.
This is not the me that used to be!
Almost a completely different person...
...
I did not have to travel to a meeting. I am just sitting here.
Some place I would have to attend three or four meetings, just to have a share like this!
...some things I have done over the last 5 or 6 weeks, have been less than exemplary.
In my life I was sometimes too scared to take risks, and therefore did not learn as much as I needed.
Some of my contact with people is through my trusty laptop; but I do try to keep my feet on the ground.
Contact now over a recovery daughter in Illinois bought tears to my eyes- as she recalled her sister in service
overseas.
An old old friend with whom we have been to hell and back- ditto... she lives 1800km away... so grateful for my
emotions... for my programme, and for recovery friends- who are just so gritty and real!
...
I.went to high school in Kent!!
I have not been able to.keep up.as much on the radio 4 and BBC as I normally do.
Glad you are keeping active and finding solace in others
That is some of what I.am aiming for in adulthood
I am aiming to be mature and solid
I think I have finally come to be in.acceotance of the pandemuc. I guess it only took me 8 months
Going to a place where Incan get reafy for the next shut down
Inam so glad you keep is uodares daily of what you are doing
Thank you!!
Maresie