Kathleen--

Holding you in my thoughts. So sorry for your loss.

Temple

Me too, I'm so sorry for your loss.

(((((hugs))))) Glad she is at peace, and you are surrounded by love.

(((Kathleen))) - may the God of your understanding give you grace to heal as you mourn. May your mama rest in peace. So, so sorry for your loss.

(((((Kathleen))))

Losing your parent - no matter at what age - is so difficult. Your mother was your very first support system in this world. As you said, she is now at peace, surrounded by those who went before and love her. My condolences,

I am sorry for your loss. My parents caused me tremendous loss, abuse and neglect. I distanced myself from them for decades. For one decade I did not even speak to them. When my mother died anither trauma followed regadding her will. Still more unfortunately for me I was with the qualifier whwn ny mother died. He resented my grief. He deeply resented my a ioity to confront my family because of course he was completely incapable of dealing with his. Therefore I could not have been in a more.unsupoort8live environment. I am so glad you have created a second family for yourself in al anon. That is an incredible acc9molishment My mother's death brought a lot of turmoil for me and a lot of rage and grief resurfaced. My mother failed me both as a child and then as an.adult. i felt very bitter and angry but I had not worked through much of my anger at her. Needless to say all my issues with my sblings surfaced as well. In fact I stopped all contact with my younger sister at that time. I am relieved to no longer be trying ti go to that well. I understand why ny family maintained their denial into adukthood. Back then, after my mother's death I was still trying to challenge it. Needless to say I could not have lived in a more hostile environment with the qualifier. When i received the news my mother died in the middle of the night the qualifier said and.did absolutely nothing. That about sums uo our relationship because he gave so little unless it was to his advantage. Then, of course, he demanded everything in exchange for that privilege.. I am so glad you have support, care, clarity and peace. I am also glad you are well aware you are loved and cared for I am indeed in awe of your recovery and ability to transcend such an incredible loss. Thank you for being part of this group to shine the way ror the rest of us. Maresie

Lovely outlook Kathleen - prayers continue for you and yours...thanks for checking in.

Kathleen. It is indeed a tesramont to your recovery thst you are able to mark the death of your mother My sisters are completely incapable of having even a basic conversation about my mother's mental illness (addictions she had many) as well as the abject chaos she lived in throughout her life. Growing up with a mother like that had extraordinary repercussions for me throughout my life. Unravelling those issues has taken me decades of therapy, 12 step programs as well.as bibliotherapy. Therefore given the issues you have had with your mother your capacity to offer forgveness at thid time is truly an act of grace. Maresie

My sisters & I sent a yellow balloon rise into the clouds. What a send off! We are so blessed!