i bike around the valley a fair bit. The bike has about 18 gears. A long way away from the old bone shaker I rode as a kid.
About 12 years ago i was biking around the lake. I looked around and realised that the trees were moving around- and even the hills were moving. The hills moved much slower than the trees- because they were further away, of course.
And no- I was not watching Lord Of The Rings.
It was just that my narrow perception of the world had opened up- and I was seeing the world as dynamic.
And I was moving through the landscape- as an integral part of it.
I sought truth and true spirit assiduously, even before I came to Alanon. I had a three day spiritual awakening when I was about 20.
I had to come to terms with organised religion- all along the way.
Some of us in 12 step groups experience a closeness- and group intimacy- that a church would find hard to match.
This is a part of our journey in Alanon too- at least in my experience.
One thing, as I began to grow from the stump of my former life, was that I started to practise gratitude.
This was extremely hard at first- I had to fake to to make it, really. But an attitude of gratitude is a great asset! ...
I have healed and cured from a certain amount of stuff, along the way. I do have some way to go.
I see my life and world now in a strong light. My back yard is fill of sand. This valley was once a dust bowl.
So I dig out the sand every year and replace it with rich soil. Every year my veggies and fruit improves.
We have to irrigate here- because of the dry. And this helps as well. It is treat to have soil that is full of
humus. It soaks up the moisture and holds it.
It is a spring day here in NZ. Early frost. Sun streaming in now...
I am doing a technique here, which I modified- and I call it "squirrelling".
I would not get to share so much ion a f2f setting. And especially not every day- as ah does sometimes.
So I am grateful for this.
Not a share really for the old "agony aunt". No longer a cry for help, so much.
A focus more now, on self care. Self soothing, even.
I am open and receptive to HP. [Higher Power}. My focus changes over time.
I expect to see it in others too- and I do see it here. ...
Thanks for the share y'all...
so grateful...
Fedora said
Sep 8, 2020
Thank you for this.
Maresie888 said
Sep 8, 2020
Self care has always been a hard.one for me.
Right now I have been doing self care with a grear deal of frustration
There are multole atressors at play
Health
Financial I received a huge bill that swallowed up all my savings
Constant change and uncertainity related to the virus.
Leaving jobs starting jobs.
Major dental problems
The goox news is that I realise that I have more than enough on my. Plate
I mat be too busy to not have tine for my usual soural down around the holidays
These are unprecedented times
Maresie
DavidG said
Sep 8, 2020
Thanks Fedora and Maresie...
It was my dentist who told me that my gum disease has abated- because my anxiety had reduced to normal levels.
I was at the dental school in the city. There was only had to pay for the materials. I had travelled 3 hours to get there.
The person behind me had cancelled their appointment- and there was a student waiting. So I got a back to back
appointment. I was able to get a lot of stuff done- including two badly impacted wisdom teeth. Looking back on my
life- I have been a survivor. In a bad way- but any ray of hope I would follow and try it out. Not all worked, But here
ah is! ...
mamalioness said
Sep 12, 2020
hey David, great share and yea, our emotions can wreak havoc on our bodies...back spasms drove me to really get "inside of me" and acknowledge that my inner child is still in pain mode.....I am hoping as I do this R A I N therapy with the tennis balls massaging and the journalling, I can minimize my PTSD and GAD......You were the one who first brought my attention to "stored pain" but I just did not see what you meant...I do now and I thank you for that
DavidG said
Sep 12, 2020
Rosie... thanks... xo...
I encourage people to begin their journey as young as possible.
I wish I had- but the understanding and knowledge was not there, then.
Taking time to address the stored trauma- at any age- in a gentle way, does help us through.
Taking time out for each other- to talk... ...is a part of the journey as well- priceless. ...
serenity47 said
Sep 13, 2020
Thank you David. You are an eloquent story teller.
About 12 years ago i was biking around the lake. I looked around and realised that the trees were moving around- and even the hills were moving. The hills moved much slower than the trees- because they were further away, of course.
And no- I was not watching Lord Of The Rings.
It was just that my narrow perception of the world had opened up- and I was seeing the world as dynamic.
And I was moving through the landscape- as an integral part of it.
I sought truth and true spirit assiduously, even before I came to Alanon. I had a three day spiritual awakening when I was about 20.
I had to come to terms with organised religion- all along the way.
Some of us in 12 step groups experience a closeness- and group intimacy- that a church would find hard to match.
This is a part of our journey in Alanon too- at least in my experience.
One thing, as I began to grow from the stump of my former life, was that I started to practise gratitude.
This was extremely hard at first- I had to fake to to make it, really. But an attitude of gratitude is a great asset!
...
I have healed and cured from a certain amount of stuff, along the way. I do have some way to go.
I see my life and world now in a strong light. My back yard is fill of sand. This valley was once a dust bowl.
So I dig out the sand every year and replace it with rich soil. Every year my veggies and fruit improves.
We have to irrigate here- because of the dry. And this helps as well. It is treat to have soil that is full of
humus. It soaks up the moisture and holds it.
It is a spring day here in NZ. Early frost. Sun streaming in now...
I am doing a technique here, which I modified- and I call it "squirrelling".
I would not get to share so much ion a f2f setting. And especially not every day- as ah does sometimes.
So I am grateful for this.
Not a share really for the old "agony aunt". No longer a cry for help, so much.
A focus more now, on self care. Self soothing, even.
I am open and receptive to HP. [Higher Power}. My focus changes over time.
I expect to see it in others too- and I do see it here.
...
Thanks for the share y'all...
so grateful...
It was my dentist who told me that my gum disease has abated- because my anxiety had reduced to normal levels.
I was at the dental school in the city. There was only had to pay for the materials. I had travelled 3 hours to get there.
The person behind me had cancelled their appointment- and there was a student waiting. So I got a back to back
appointment. I was able to get a lot of stuff done- including two badly impacted wisdom teeth. Looking back on my
life- I have been a survivor. In a bad way- but any ray of hope I would follow and try it out. Not all worked, But here
ah is!
...
I encourage people to begin their journey as young as possible.
I wish I had- but the understanding and knowledge was not there, then.
Taking time to address the stored trauma- at any age- in a gentle way, does help us through.
Taking time out for each other- to talk... ...is a part of the journey as well- priceless.
...