Just when I was feeling settled anther curveball with Covid 19 I am resilient these days but there is no chance of feeling comfortable Maresie

I'm so sorry Maresie, big hugs, none of this is easy it's really the unknown that makes me feel uneasy. I am struggling with my 11th grader on what to do in regards to school. I live in Texas and it's looking like another shutdown is coming it is a question of when. Should that happen my job will shift dramatically.

Hugs again, hopefully things will soon change in a more positive proactive direction. The bottom line is no one should be surprised covid19 and the ramifications from it are not over on many levels.

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I am certainly growing because these days I am 100% responsible for myself Before I was 100% responsible for everyone else. Maresie

Then there is more. I have one day off this week. I had scheduled much needed appointments for that date. Now I had to cancel them at short notice because the apartnent complex need access to my apartment out of the blue. They are making an incredible racket outside drilling into the walls. I normally do not stay in the apartment during the day because of this new racket. The racket is unbearable. Now I am stuck here. Moreover now my entire schedule has bern changed because of this COVID 19 shutdown. That is not to mention the new normal problems I have every day because of the COVID 19 It is real hard going. It is a miracle I get anything done at all !! I am glad I have a program because without it I would be a ball on the floor. Maresie

I made it through yesterday. My county is shut down for another 3 weeks This year has been a doozy If it wasnt enough thar the aoartment complex has people drilling in the walls all day every day now they have leaf blowers going when they are not banging Obviously they have nothing but contemot but the tenants because they dont even bother to mention the inctedible noise This is really trying but it doesnt come close to the problems I had with the alcoholic roommate. He was in a whole class of his own. Detachment is essential every minute of the day

I.am back to taking it one day at a time. No more on this plate. I try to avoid people who trigger me and situations that trigger me. I get to.a place where I think I.can get ahead then everything gets scrambled This is better than living with the alcoholic roommate. He had absolutely no interest in any one else's needs. He is a true narcissist. It is hard going like being without a paddle. I have to detach by the hour on what is happening. Then I bring myself back to what I can do today. I try to be patient and not mired in frustration. Then I try for rest. PreCovid this year was bad. Then it was a disaster. Then it was frustration. Then it was scrambling. That is where I am right now one day at a time. I know there is no.givens but this has been 7 months of hardship. When I left the qualifier I endured a lot if hardship before I lefr then everything fell into place more so when I cut off all contact with him. I am real tired of the daily struggle even when the struggle is on a whole other level than it was 3 months ago. Every day another curveball comoletely out of ny control. Maresie