So my job that I loved even though the pay rate was super crappy sputtered then went into a coma so lifeless it's dead. At first, I was obsessed with looking for signs of life. After a few days, I accepted it's over. I feel a little bereft but there were a few little alarm bells from the outset which caused me to affirm from day 6 that I would view this job as serving only my highest good and once it stopped serving that goal I would trust and let it go. Still. I didn't anticipate letting it go so soon. I suppose I'm here to eulogise it and move on. There are some positives. I learn things very quickly and assimilate new knowledge in vast quantities. So in terms of my chosen field I was able to pick up all the procedural aspects that don't get taught in school. That's priceless to me. Where I am there's an ever present undercurrent of racism and classism. I can't stand either, being mixed and broadly exposed to many different lifestyles. People are people, good is good and bad is bad. It's not justifiable or attributable to genetics in my view. Choices in light of circumstances determine character to me for the most part. So in that regard it was not a good fit for me and was bound to come to a head. I'm a little sad but I do have full faith that I'm given only what serves my highest good. So with the rest of our membership I'll be spending the quiet time trying to shift and maintain a positivity mindset, staying close to my HP and hitting the books for next semester when law school resumes for me. Stay safe and loved everyone.

Acceptance is not always easy I have found!

However, you seem to be doing so in a healthy way! Kudos!
I am glad to read that you had a great "take-away" from this short work journey.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

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(((a4l))) - good on you for the healthy attitude you're practicing! There's no shame at all in mourning the loss of the job for whatever reason at any time. I love that you're focusing on what you gained from the experience! Sounds like great recovery to me - after all, I've been told it's healthy to look for lessons and learning in every encounter I have every day. Good on you!

Racism and classism do not compute in my mind - I see no need for it, see no purpose in it and don't waste time on it or thinking about it. I do what I can to treat all with unconditional acceptance trusting that the God of my understanding has put them in my path for some reason. Keep doing you - looks awesome on you and it's really good to see you!

(((((((((((((a41)))))))))))))) you are walkin, talkin PROOF that program works....what a great attitude.........GREAT job!!!!

I wish to put big 'ole love hearts beside every reply. Thank you very much for your supportive vibes. I am very cheered by them. Something will turn up. It always does!