...when i joined the MIP online groups- I picked up a saying- that made the steps and serenity prayer much more simple- to hold in my hand, as it were. Poco a poco, paso a paso, dia por dia... little by little, step by step, day by day. And so I achieved the 'one day at a time' goal- being able to live in the present- and being to able to deal with issues, and concerns- as they arise.
Doing my middle steps- steps 4 thru 9 I reminded myself to be kind to myself- as much as being kind to others. At the same time I realised that i was not squeaky clean, either.
So, after clean-up time, that took years- I am ready to move along and to take things as they come...
...in recent shares here I became aware that changes were taking place- that may take weeks or months- but should kick in during my lifetime hopefully. I need to take tiny risks by reaching our further.
As I completed the middle steps my thinking cleared [slowly]. I realised that I had a lot of catching up to do. But that I was going to make it.
I can stand at my front door- and look up the veranda to the garden gate. I put it there long ago- and the gate is like a swinging saloon door, really.
I am now retired from regular work. My life occupation was more like a back singlet job than a blue collar job. I never had a desk job, at all.
We have a fairly big back yard- and I grow fruit and vegetables. I also have three hens.
it is a lifetimes work to have a nice tidy garden. This does not come naturally to me. In my family home, growing up there was no gardening, or tidying. No lawn-mowing. Not even rubbish disposal.
[Sometimes I think about my shadow self, or false self. Other people might call it "satan' or 'the enemy'... but either way it is the same to me.]
I was the oldest of five- and worked fairly hard. We had an orchard and small farm. In some ways it was a kids paradise with many pets and animals. Lots of place to play and make huts. When i reached my teens i backed off from human contact. But as a kid there were lots of other kids around and a huge play area.
There was an old wash-house near our home. It was a tin shack really- left over from the gold mining era. There was home made soap- and a wash board in the wash house. And I made a museum in there. A broken hand grenade, some 19th century books- and other treasures.
Then one day our outhouse blew over in the wind. Mum put a shovel at the doorstep and we had to go out into the trees to relieve ourselves.
After a while she bought a chemical toilet and installed it in the wash-house. As usual adults do not see the work of children.
It was at this time I became self-conscious to the people being around, especially why own peers. Every so often our mum used to lug the can out of the outhouse and bury the contents out under some cherry trees. This was an improvement on using the shovel. Before long I would dig a hole outside- and do this chore myself. Sometimes the can would get overfull- and too heavy for me. Then, I suppose the elves and the fairies came along and emptied it.
I often think about my dreams and aspirations as a kid- and how they turned out. But these dreams and aspirations carried my forward- when my life fell apart. Even now, as I write this there is a black and white photo of Bill and Lois on the wall. These two folk emerged as my ideal mum and dad. I have shared before about being in their home- stepping stones- and the profound experience this was. I wept buckets of tears- tears of joy and gratitude.
As a kid I admired Madame Marie Curie, and Alexander Fleming- and wanted to discover and invent wonderful things. I still do. But more so today- I want to do this with other people. About the human spirit. About how to make the dark areas glow.
So. over the next three months- I want to build a framework around Step 12 and Tradition 5... to put my gratitude to work. To make the most of my own insight, and connections, in the programme... ... ...
hotrod said
Oct 21, 2019
David I found that having an attitude of gratitude helped me to enjoy eacch day and hold fast to my hp
2HP said
Oct 21, 2019
inspiring post on willingness, the first essential savior. thank you for sharing your spiritual goals (((david)))
JerryF said
Oct 21, 2019
Learning to have attitudes and then attitudes regarding various emotions and behaviors was learning to "change the thing I can" Gratitude was a huge change for me as I rarely felt thankful for anyone or anything in life. Today I have all sorts of gratitude expressions from flowers to birds to weather conditions and such. I get presents all of the time. YAY...Mahalo Akua...Thank you God!! (((MIP))) YAY
Hi y'all,
...when i joined the MIP online groups- I picked up a saying- that made the steps and serenity prayer much more simple- to hold in my hand, as it were. Poco a poco, paso a paso, dia por dia... little by little, step by step, day by day. And so I achieved the 'one day at a time' goal- being able to live in the present- and being to able to deal with issues, and concerns- as they arise.
Doing my middle steps- steps 4 thru 9 I reminded myself to be kind to myself- as much as being kind to others. At the same time I realised that i was not squeaky clean, either.
So, after clean-up time, that took years- I am ready to move along and to take things as they come...
...in recent shares here I became aware that changes were taking place- that may take weeks or months- but should kick in during my lifetime hopefully. I need to take tiny risks by reaching our further.
As I completed the middle steps my thinking cleared [slowly]. I realised that I had a lot of catching up to do. But that I was going to make it.
I can stand at my front door- and look up the veranda to the garden gate. I put it there long ago- and the gate is like a swinging saloon door, really.
I am now retired from regular work. My life occupation was more like a back singlet job than a blue collar job. I never had a desk job, at all.
We have a fairly big back yard- and I grow fruit and vegetables. I also have three hens.
it is a lifetimes work to have a nice tidy garden. This does not come naturally to me. In my family home, growing up there was no gardening, or tidying. No lawn-mowing. Not even rubbish disposal.
[Sometimes I think about my shadow self, or false self. Other people might call it "satan' or 'the enemy'... but either way it is the same to me.]
I was the oldest of five- and worked fairly hard. We had an orchard and small farm. In some ways it was a kids paradise with many pets and animals. Lots of place to play and make huts. When i reached my teens i backed off from human contact. But as a kid there were lots of other kids around and a huge play area.
There was an old wash-house near our home. It was a tin shack really- left over from the gold mining era. There was home made soap- and a wash board in the wash house. And I made a museum in there. A broken hand grenade, some 19th century books- and other treasures.
Then one day our outhouse blew over in the wind. Mum put a shovel at the doorstep and we had to go out into the trees to relieve ourselves.
After a while she bought a chemical toilet and installed it in the wash-house. As usual adults do not see the work of children.
It was at this time I became self-conscious to the people being around, especially why own peers. Every so often our mum used to lug the can out of the outhouse and bury the contents out under some cherry trees. This was an improvement on using the shovel. Before long I would dig a hole outside- and do this chore myself. Sometimes the can would get overfull- and too heavy for me. Then, I suppose the elves and the fairies came along and emptied it.
I often think about my dreams and aspirations as a kid- and how they turned out. But these dreams and aspirations carried my forward- when my life fell apart. Even now, as I write this there is a black and white photo of Bill and Lois on the wall. These two folk emerged as my ideal mum and dad. I have shared before about being in their home- stepping stones- and the profound experience this was. I wept buckets of tears- tears of joy and gratitude.
As a kid I admired Madame Marie Curie, and Alexander Fleming- and wanted to discover and invent wonderful things. I still do. But more so today- I want to do this with other people. About the human spirit. About how to make the dark areas glow.
So. over the next three months- I want to build a framework around Step 12 and Tradition 5... to put my gratitude to work. To make the most of my own insight, and connections, in the programme...
... 
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Learning to have attitudes and then attitudes regarding various emotions and behaviors was learning to "change the thing I can" Gratitude was a huge change for me as I rarely felt thankful for anyone or anything in life. Today I have all sorts of gratitude expressions from flowers to birds to weather conditions and such. I get presents all of the time. YAY...Mahalo Akua...Thank you God!! (((MIP))) YAY
